My dad always has an urban legend to tell about his childhood. He keeps on making up stories that to earn money when he was still a kid, he would sell ice-drops, corn cobs etc etc barefoot under the scorching sun. As a child, I was so amazed that he actually did those things and managed to earn his allowance from it without asking from his parents. I asked my grandmother about it and eventually I learned everything was a hoax. I tell him to stop creating his tales because I feel like it's offending my grandmother. :)) But of course, he has a lot in store for us.

Last night, on our way home from Makati, we passed by streetchildren sleeping on the gutter. I didn't know he was also looking at them when he suddenly spoke..

Dad: Mahirap ung ganyan, matulog sa kalye.
Me: mm-hmm. Kawawa naman sila
Dad: Oo, malamig ung kalye.. etc etc etc
Me: *weirded out* Pano mo naman nalaman?!
Dad: Na-experience ko na matulog sa kalye (super paawa voice)
Me: Ha?!! Bakit ka naman natulog sa kalye?

Dad: Wala, gusto ko lang subukan.

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My dad, bow.

I believe my dad is an intelligent man. But at this point, his skepticism has gotten out of hand. :))

Whatever is going on inside my dad's mind and no matter how many urban legends he has, I love him to bits!

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY PAPA! <3

I never really relied much on Facebook stuff, quizzes and whatnots. I just answer them for the heck of it and because they're so much fun but I never tried believing any of the results. But lately, I've been hooked on "See What God Wants You to Know Today". They don't have unique results. Nikko has received exactly the same message as I did before, only on a different day. But as Han said, it's not the message but the time I got the message.

Today, this is what I got:

Fay got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.

That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

During the Sunday mass, I kept on asking God if what I'm doing right now is proper, if it's going to help me find what I really want and if it's going to lead me to the success I am meant to have. I think I just got an answer. :)

The Failure I've been Wanting to Escape

It's been 3 months since I got the news and until now I still cringe remembering that night when I cried like hell, that night when Ox, Love and Nikko stayed beside me until I was able to let my crying subside just for even a while. It was something I think I will never forget. I must say I have never felt so depressed in my entire life because I thought I could never fail in anything at all. My mind was so cramped up with that incorrigible notion that it tore me to pieces when I found out I failed.

Fast forward to now, I don't think I have entirely recovered from the pain. It is just too much to take and the terrible wrathed-feeling hasn't left me. The loneliness still creeps in and I still get sad despite my smiles and laughs. I am very much happy, yes, but that part of my life has left such indelible mark. It feels like they have nailed it on me and it causes pain from time to time. I've never been over it. It's just that I'm better at controlling my emotions now. I see it now as a joke especially from people I am very very very much close to. I owe such resilience I have to my friends, family and buddy. I don't think I'd find enough strength to wake up to a new day and actually face this horrendous chapter had it not for them.

Now is another phase. At this very moment I am typing, I feel a bit weak. I sort of think of what could've been but I'm trying to block all negative thoughts. I keep on telling myself that there's nothing to be sad about. I should start counting my blessings and not my troubles.

I know how what happened made a few people happy (duh! galing mismo sa kanila haha). At first it pained me to know they did find such satisfaction from that failure but after 3 months, I really no longer give a damn about them. I'll live my life, they'll live theirs and I guess they should give me credit for making them happy for some time.

And yes, I have fallen. I have fallen more in love with the people who keep on trying their best to make forget. :)

This next phase is for them. :) and well maybe, for the other THEM as well. :)

Everyone's doing this so ako na din :p

Tagged by BA :)

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Water.
2. last phone call = Dad.
3. last text message = Nikkolangot.
4. last song you listened to = Beethoven's piece. haha (I'm watching Copying Beethoven)
5. last time you cried = The whole month of April

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't know.
8. kissed someone & regretted it =No
9. lost someone special = Yes.
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Nope :)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Blue
13. Red
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = A lot! :)
16. Fallen out of love = Nope nope nope :)
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes. Kung barkada mo ba naman barkada ko. haha
18. Met someone who changed you = Yeeesss... Sir Charlie (ay 2008 ko ata siya na-meet haha)
19. Found out who your true friends were = Definitely
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yeeessss :)) Ewan ko kung maaalala ni Tricia
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list = I wonder why people answer no to this.

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = 95% din. The rest basta taga-CSR, ok na. :p
24. Do you have any pets = Pompom (pomeranian. Hence, the name :))), Tutee (half pom, half mini pinscher), Manny (fighting fish).
25. Do you want to change your name = No :)
26. What did you do for your last birthday = It's always like a month-long celeb. I had extreme fun with people I love most. :)
27. What time did you wake up today = 11:30 :)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night= Spending time with someone. :)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = October!!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Kaharap ko siya ngayon. Kinakausap ako. Haha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Taking 49 during the 2nd sem :)
32. What are you listening to right now = Mom talking
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Not yet.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = The gloomy weather
35. Most visited webpage = Plurk
37. Nicknames = Fay, Kaye..
38. Relationship Status = Content and very much happy:).
39. Zodiac sign = Capricorn
40. He or She? = He
41. Elementary? = Colegio de Sta. Rosa Makati
42. Middle School = Wala
43. High school/College = CSR Makati / UP Diliman
44. Hair colour = Dark brown
45. Long or short = Long
46. Height = 5' 3"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Hhhmm Celebrity crushes
48: What do you like about yourself? =I have the friends I have :)
49. Piercings= 1 on either ear.
50. Tattoos = None
51. Righty or lefty= Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = None :)
53. First piercing = Both ears
54. First best friend = Patnog :)
55. First sport you joined = Volley
56. First vacation = Grabe naman. I don't know. haha
58. First pair of trainers = Ha?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Just finished lunch.
60. Drinking = None
61. I'm about to = Play bejeweled
62. Listening to = The rain. yeeeesss :))
63. Waiting for = the rain to stop.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Of course. :)
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Tsss.. geting on it.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses= Hugs :)
69. Shorter or taller= Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older by face and isip :))
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = :))Stomach siguro :))
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Troublemaker.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No.
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart = Malay.
81. Had your own heart broken = I guess.
82. Been arrested = Nope.
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = Yes. :(
85. Fallen for a friend? = Yes :)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Of course :)
87. Miracles = There won't be any if you' don't believe :)
88. Love at first sight = Noooo
89. Heaven = Yes. :)
90. Santa Claus = yes!.
91. Kiss on the first date = Nope :).
92. Angels = Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = I don't count the others e.
95. Did you sing today? = Not yet. Later inside the shower haha
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = Nope, never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = 2nd sem
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Lantern Parade :)(:.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = Yes but love consumes the fear when it's there na FOR REAL.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? =Yes.

I went on a 13-day training on Fundamentals in Baking and Pasty Arts at the CCA from May 11-May 27. I've been baking at home with my mom but I never really had a way of doing any of the products without referring to the recipe and following it just about how I am instructed. After the training, I figured that despite the fact that baking is an exact science, it's still how you maneuver your hands in every mix and your tasteful way of doing some surplus over some ingredients that makes your produce showcase your uniqueness. It's always important to think of who you are preparing the food for and how you feel about that person.

The training was quite expensive and I never really thought my parents would agree to send me there for 13 days. They were actually eyeing the 6-month program but unfortunately, my schedule does not permit me to pursue it. As I've said, it was quite expensive and despite my want to really enrol I thought that 13 days would really be short. I can get training for about 3 days for a much much much much lesser tuition. But to our surprise, CCA did a good job on this short course. I got to learn how to spice up different desserts which I intend to do for my family, friends and the business I've been saving for.

Right now, I'm at the stage of re-learning from what I've learned. I have had friends taste my finished products and yes they were a bit disappointed (haha!). I think I really don't have the skills to be at the kitchen but I'm really trying. :) Well anyway, I think people should give this short course a try. I met a lot of people and it's very amazing how I got close to them with only 13 days to get to know each other. :)

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The Hayden Kho - Katrina Halili Issue

If I'm some bitch, I think I would just tell the media to just SHUT UP. But being a woman, I think I should feel some sympathy over Katrina Halili and the rest of the girls victimized by the scandal. Well yes, I've been so sympathetic ever since the news broke out. Women are created by God to be taken care of and respected by men. I do have boy friends and I know that sensual stuff like these are normal to them. It never really surprised me if they have pornographies on their laptops and stacks of XXX dvd's at home even if I do let out some feeling of eewiness. Hehe :)

As the news would have it, this is not the first case that someone from the industry was dastrically exposed in such a sexual and must I say inhumane manner. If this is not the first then the senate (fine, the government in general) would have done something even way way way back before to stop scandals like this to happen. It has happened to Marcos and many others and it's only now they realize that a law should be instituted to penalize acts like this. What the hell? Aren't they like a lifetime too late do that? And now the media and senate are hounding everyone regarding this issue just because they don't know what to do to such unpunishable crime.

It's getting all too annoying. Around 90% of the news are about Hayden and Katrina. What else should the people know about it? If they solve it, would we finally have enough food to feed our unfortunate citizens? If they solve it, would they finally convince people to stop doing acts that contributes to global warming? If they solve it, would people know then who really should take office next year? It's causing too much disgrace to the women involved and as the media continue to delve into details, a lot of names also surface. We do have the right to know about issues like this but personally I do not think that sensitive matters as this should be highly sensationalized. If they're goal is to get the sympathy of people, well they're starting to lose it.

I think for once they should minimize tackling the matter so Katrina would have some time to grieve on her own and think about what she has to do about it without the public getting too much into a problem she must face as an indivdual whose integrity was tarnished and not only as a celebriy who has to clear her name. In fairness to Hayden, despite being the man who did all taping, the issue is WHO SPREAD THE VIDEOS and not WHO MADE IT. It's so sick how the senate condemns him of trying to tape his private moments with his girls when really, there are lot in the country who does that. Actually, it's confusing if they're trying to look on the details of why he made the videos or who opened pandora's box. As how I see it, they only want to condemn Hayden Kho just because Katrina Halili is doing so and it would be much more pleasurable and an awww-momentously created act for the public if they would side on the victim.

I heard that what had happened was against the Doctors' Code of Ethics (if there is such) and invalidating Hayden's license would be inevitable. Give the man a break for crying out loud. A medical license is not something you wake up to the morning after hard-partying. If this happens maybe then they should try to search every doctor's hard drive for scandals. They're not even sure if Hayden really made it for the purpose of selling or fabricating copies. Katrina Halili has every right to throw all curses to Hayden and feel all wrath for him and even concretize that wrath. She, along with the other women, are the only ones who have these rights and no one else.

I believe that the people we have put into office and who are currently trying to solve this problem are very intelligent. More so, I know that the media is only performing its duties. But like any normal person, you just have to know when to lie-low on certain things and just hype it up when you finally found the real score. They would say that people demands publicized proceedings on this. But what do they really want? To protect those involved or to just let people know that "hey look, we're acting on this. We're so great.".

Hhhm.. I think I just got sick of hearing stuff about this. From the afternoon until the news in the evening, this is all they are talking about. What the hell? We have a country to save, don't we?

Lalalalalalalala :)

Must love weekends :)

CCA Day 1!

Today marked my first day at the CCA. I got there around 7:30AM despite the 8AM calltime. I should have known that during first days, instructors give a large leway for latecomers. Well, anyway, I pictured it to be boring. It was a 7-hour lecture with new faces so what should I expect? But 'lo and behold Chef Harold Punsalan. I don't know how he did it but I really tried to be receptive about everything he was talking about (from foodborne illness to all those salmonella etc etc).

I can't very much put into detail everything he discussed because it really was 7 (or even more) freakin' hours of food lectures. I made a few friends, two to be exact. Well, it is entirely hard to start any conversation during lectures so I just befriended those who sat beside me. One was Bea, the CCA owner's daughter. She's also from UPD so we got to talk about a lot of stuff from grades to a number of controversial people. Haha. The other was Ate Susan, owner of Bethany Dream Cakes. She showed me pictures of her works and she was really.. wow... great at what she's doing. You can check her multiply by clicking on the link. :)

Okay, here are a few things that got stuck on my mind, the rest are just scribbled on my readings:

* there's actually a proper refrigerator arrangement and i'm about to that to our fridge this weekend
* never buy canned goods that are dented or have bulges.

... 2 lang?

I have a lot in mind but I'm just too damn tired going around Gateway during the lunchbreak.

Basta, I enjoyed big time (even though Chef made me feel like a geek because I finished the culinary math exercises ahead and it was so nakakahiya because now everyone thinks I'm the odd one out). I can't wait for tomorrow! :) We start the dirty jobs na! Yey!! :D

I live in a sick village. Why do my neighbors love bashing each other's cars? I mean, who cares about who has got the hottest and newest cars? Does it really kill them to see another new car parked along someone else's driveway? We have a neighbor who changes cars every year and now that he has got another one, he is yet again the subject of ridicule.

Alongside that story, they've been talking about my car and mom's also (probably because we're near him). They keep on bashing. Dah.

They just sound so pathetic. I guess thought I shouldn't give a damn. Apparently, they don't know top-of-the-line cars. :/

Wala lang. They annoy me big time. What's with.

<3

Mom's been using my laptop so she can play bejeweled! We've been having arguments about it (hahaha!). I told her to bring hers home and I promise to install Bejeweled. Apparently, she wants using my laptop so I'm stuck with ate's laptop (playing bejeweled as well). Haha I decided to stop, though. I think it's making me bobo already.

One thing I love about ate's lappy are the songs she's been stealing from her friends' playlists. :) I'm dozing off listening to kilig duet love songs right now and this probably would be the best song for tonight..

never knew such a day could come
And I never knew such a love
Could be inside of one


And I never knew what my life was for
But now that you're here I know for sure


I never knew till I looked in your eyes
I was incomplete till the day you walked into my life
And I never knew that my heart could feel
So precious and pure
One love so real


Can I just see you every morning when
I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me
Every night
Can we just feel this way together
Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you


Now baby the days and the weeks
And the years will roll by
But nothing will change the love inside
Of you and I


And baby I'll never find any words
That could explain
Just how much my heart my life
My soul you've changed


Can you run to these open arms
When no one else understands
Can we tell God and the whole world
I'm your woman, and you're my man
Can't you just feel how much I love you
With one touch of my hand
Can I just spend my life with you


No touch has ever felt so wonderful
(You are incredible)
And a deeper love I've never known
(I'll never let you go)
I swear this love is true
(Now and forever to you to you)
Can I just see you every morning when


I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me
Every night
Can we just feel this way together
Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you
Can you run to these open arms


When no one else understands
Can we tell God and the whole world
You're my woman, and you're my man
Can't you just feel how much I love you
With one touch of my hand
Can I just spend my life with you


Can I just spend my life with you
Can I just spend my life with you
(Forever here with you)
Can I just spend my life with you
Can I just see you every morning when I
Open my eyes

You're right. I can live without you.

I just don't want to.


-Jennifer Aniston as Sarah Huttinger
Rumor Has It

back!

So I figured I'm not so much of a silent type and I can't keep this site on hiatus for so long. I actually opened a wordpress account because I thought I'm ready for "serious" blogging. After a while I realized I just chose a 'so-pa-cool' (haha) layout for it and nothing serious has been crossing my mind.

Wah. I'm so tired right now because Nikko and I helped out the new set of BOD. It was so much fun despite the gruelling rain. I'm actually expecting to be sick in a few days because I do get colds due to even the slightest drizzle and I've been so tamad to take in my vitamins. Hehe

I should be in Davao right now with my mom to visit Lolo Undo. Apparently, I'm stuck here at home finding joy in every dvd we have even if it means watching the films 939434 gazillion times! I really should have went there with mom but she's staying there for a night only and I think it would really be such a waste of money to fly that far and to stay just for a night. I actually told her that I can stay there for a few more days but dad would be lonely here at home. So yes, I had to stay. :(

Haha.

Nothing much much. I should get some sleep now. :) I hope badi will have a great time tomorrow. :)(:

Wordless

I have dealt with a lot of complicated stuff lately and despite my want to release every single pain-slash-stress-slash-angst I have, I cannot find the perfect words to convey how it has and continuously make me feel.

All I know is that I have never been this closer to God. I've been clinging on Him and He never failed me. He may not give me whatever I have asked for but He has been providing me with enough source of strength.

'Til I find the zest of writing substantial and rather inspiring thoughts, I will keep this blogsite on hiatus and just probably plurk my feelings away. :)

It's frustrating when you know you want to let it out but you can't in any way possible.

Sad but at least I know where to get happiness.

Hhhaaayy..

This too shall pass.

Tagged by hannibal :)

Rule #1:
If you open this you take it.
Rule #2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.
Rule #3:
Tag thirteen people.

Answer True or False

Q: Kissed someone on your friends list?
True

Q: Been arrested?
False

Q: Do you like someone?
True

Q: Held a snake?
True

Q: Been suspended from school?
False

Q: Sang karaoke?
True
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
True

Q: Laughed until you started crying?
True

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
False

Q: Kissed in the rain?
False

Q: Sang in the shower?
True

Q: Sat on a roof top?
True

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
False

Q: Broken a bone?
False

Q: Shaved your head?
False

Q: Played a prank on someone?
True

Q: Shot a gun?
False

Q: Donated Blood?
False

LAST PERSON.
1. You hung out with?
Mom

2. You texted?
Palma

3. You were in a car with?
Mom

4. Went to the movies with?
Nikko

5. Person you went to shop with?
Mom

6. You talked on the phone?
I don't remember. I don't use the phone often :)

7. Made you laugh?
Indirectly.. GERALD DIN!

8. You hugged?
Hhhmm

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon?
Moon

2. Winter or Fall?
Winter

3. Left or Right?
Right

4. Sunny or rainy?
Sunny

5. Where do you live?
Antipolo City

6. Club or pub?
Stat Builkding

7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on?
Yes

8. Do you want to get married?
Yes

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl

10. What time is it?
10:38 pm

11. Are you afraid of commitment?
At times

12. What is your greatest hope/wish?
That this too shall pass.

13. Do you cook?
I'm trying :)

14. Current mood?
melancholic

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?
Yes

2. Sang?
Yes

3. Listened to music?
Yes

4. Danced Crazy?
No

5. Cried?
Yes

6. Liked someone you can't have?
No

25 FIRSTS .....
1. Who was your first prom date?
Did not go out with one

2. Who was your first roommate?
Ate

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
Slammer.

4. What was your first job?
Crying Lady

5. What was your first car?
CRV

6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing?
Forgot

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Dah?

11. Who was your first best friend?
Omg I don't know!

12. Who was your first best friend in high school?
Patnog :)

13. Where was your first sleepover?
Lorraine's, Grade 7. :)

14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
Hhhmmm. I text Nikko first.

15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsman?
First time?? I don't remember.

16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning?
Sleep more --- I agree!

17. What was the first concert you went to?
Forgot

18. What was the last concert you went to?
Craig David's

19. First tattoo or piercing?
Ears

20. First celebrity crush?
Dingdong Dantes! hahahaha (TGIS days)

21. Current celebrity crush?
Jessica Alba (tomboy pala e haha)

22. First crush?
I don't remember his name but he was my busmate back in prep.

23. Current crush?
Hhhhmm?

24. First date?
o?

25. First time you tied your shoe laces?
Forgot

Five names you go by:
1. Fay
2. Kaye
3. Kristina
4. Badi (hahaha)
5.

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. Shirt
2. Shorts
3. Underwear

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. To forget about everything that had happened during the last 2 weeks
2. That I wake up to October already
3. That I'd be happy again

Two things you did last night:
1. Prayed for happiness
2. Hoped for happiness

Two things you ate today:
1. Cinnamon swirl!!! :D
2. Rice

Two people you last talked to on the phone:
Didn't use the phone today :)

Three things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. Watch a movie?
2. Eat
3. sleep

Two longest car rides:
1. Baguio
2. Quezon

Favorite beverages:
1. Java Chip
2. c2 apple
3.iced tea

I tag everyone

I don't know what to think of anymore.

I've been so down. :(

I don't know if I should start questioning how catholic exclusive schools for girls were more than a decade ago. Apparently, ate has been missing out a lot on CLE. :))

Today, my family and I went to visit 14 churches for the visita iglesia. While looking for a parking space at Sto. Domingo Church, ate read out something from one of their tarpaulins: "Siyete Palabras".

Ate: Ano ung Siyete Palabras?
(*everyone apalled*)

Me: Uhmm.. Seven Last Words?
Ate: Ha??
Mom: "I thirst", "Father, forgive them...." diba?
Ate: Ha? Seven Last Words
(*everyone nods and then I caught her counting with her fingers!!!*)
Ate: I... Thirst... Father... forgive... Them... For... ....... Hala!! Sosobra sa seven!

Everyone: OMG. :))

(PS. We did not go to the same highschool so I'm referring to some other all-girls school )

What irks me most is that we know what's the real cause of everything but people are blatantly denying what it is.

Deal with the matter the way it should be dealt with. Don't inject circumstances other people don't have anything to do with.

Mahiya naman tayo sa mga taong nadadamay.

WHAT THE FREAKIN' HELL IS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD?!!!!

Alin ang alin ang naiba?

I'm currently at CBTL Technohub. I honestly thought I had something to do but apparently I'm just a sicko who's already used to coffee shops after classes. Haha I hate hell week.

But for the moment, I'm confused........

SAAN DITO SI NIKKO?
SAAN SI MATEO?

MANALO NG 1,000,1000 KISSES FROM THEM. hahahahaha

I don't know how many times I have posted stuff about my conversations with my dad. It's just that he's downright funny and he doesn't know he is!! Here's another one that I know will make the grumpiest of grumpy people laugh out loud.

I just walked out of the bathroom when I saw him standing a few steps away. Then he called me.

Dad: Anak, halika...

So I walked towards him.

Dad: Kuha ka ng tubig.

I thought I had to get him water for his medicines. I reached out my hand thinking that he would give me the medicines he would be drinking and for me to check it. butttttttt this is how the rest of the scenario went..

Dad: Magpapalaki tayo ng........

Pagong...

Pusit..
Crab

For some weird reasons, he spent money buying these toys which grows up to 600% after 72 hours.

This is dad preparing his little pets' home for the next three days. (We just might have to get an aquarium if they grow overly big hahahaha)

Say hello to our new pets!! :) I'll name them after all this hell. haha

Scrap weeks!!!! I'm left with days now.. D-A-Y-S!!! Only a few more days left in just a SINGLE week. YYYYYEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Days. :) And soon it would hours.. then minutes... then seconds.. then milliseconds then nanoseconds..... then picoseconds...then femtosecons... then attosecond... then zeptoseconds.. then yoctoseconds... oh.. I just figured it won't stop. Hahahaha

grumpy grumpy me

When will this hell end?!

Today is UP's last day for regular classes. But of course, only extremely and unfortunately gullible people would believe it to be true. School really ends around 2 weeks after the scheduled last day. So I think it never really excited anyone in UP to hear about "the last day of classes" because we never really felt it coming nor even realize that classes really end. As it its, we are students until... APRIL. :) Ang saya!!!! dah............................. hay.

Aarrrggh. Why do we have to take exams? Why do we have to do papers?!! These last 2 hell weeks are sucking out all the tranquility in me. I'm starting to get grumpy even on the most petty things and I feel like every minute should be spent with readings and a highlighter. (Yeah, I know. GEEK!). But that's how things should be right now. Can't wait for all of these to be over!

And yes, the weather is greatly adding up to my grumpiness.

ggrr

I haven't blogged for a while and it's all because of school, school, school............. SCHOOL. I'm forcing myself to stop checking out some of my friends' albums on multiply. Apparently, they've been out having a hell lot of fun (and even at times bickering because they miss school).

Aaarrrggghh..

Okay. Time to rehearse my 193 report and then start on149ps.

God bless me !! :(


Oh by the way, thank God s143 is OVER AND DONE WITH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!

Lalalalalalala.................. break time.

Lalalalalalalala.................

Hhhaayy.

Hhhmm. What do I have to share?

Oh I know! While I'm thinking ways to raise my own money, ate just brought home a new toy..
I don't know what you call it. It's an HP laptop that does that 360-degree screen turn and you really don't have to use the keyboard. You can use the stylus in everything. Hahaha I've been "toying" with it. hahahahaha

Amazing.

She has this while I'm penniless!

Anyway, back to studying.

REASONS

I woke at 3pm today (just because I slept around 7am) and told myself to study around 5pm. And then I found excuses to keep my mind stalled. hahahahahahaha I finally started studying around 7pm and then took a break again because I told myself that Maalala Mo Kaya is always a must-see tv show. After which, I went back to studying.

Then I realized House is yet another must-see show so yes, I again watched tv and then went back to studying.

Then I figured I SHOULD check my emails (which I failed to do so because of Facebook and Multiply). So I did surf the net for a good 30-minutes. (Note: Because I know I should focus, I intentionally did not log-in to YM to prevent chats haha). Then I went back to studying.

And then! I turned on the tv again and found A Haunting on Discovery Channel. I love paranormal shows and so I took an hour watching it and then decided to go back to studying.

Now I feel like my brain is super drained already and so I'm here taking a break and watching Gwapings with Angelu de Leon, Jolina and Claudine on Youtube (don't ask why. When I do stuff like this, it only means I'm talking to Han) hahahaha

This isn't good. I must focus!!!

Aarrrgghh!!

I feel so frustrated. (Not for any substantial reason, though. haha)

I've been sick for more than a week. I even think my friends are now more used to my coughing than my normal healthy self. I've had more than my fair share of liquid just to quench my itchy throat. I take antibiotics, antihistamines, arcoxia, a huge tablet which acts like an alcaseltzer when submerged into a glass of water and even a nasal spray!! Still, im coughing my lungs out!!! Although it has somehow died down, I still hate the fact that I'm taking so many medications and yet still coughing!

Aarrrgghh.

And what frustrates me most is that when I opened all the refrigerators here at home, each has boxes.. and i mean BOXES of chocolates. So much for familial sensitivity. :(

I want to be well 'cause I want to eat chocolates :(

Ang mature haha.

But it's true, I haven't been well for more than a week and it's beginning to annoy me :(

This is the time when I need to decide on whether to choose what makes me happy now or what would make me happier in the longer run. :(

Today's Gawad Kalinga was rather tiring and darkening (haha!). But I enjoyed using the shovel under the scorching heat of the sun. I was pretty excited about our Gawad Kalinga thing since it was somewhat like an immersion and immersions excite me because I get to live someone else's life for a day or so. So today, I was more or less a construction worker. It was a bit tough even if all we did was dig into rocks and soil and do this human-chain thing to get those rocks to the other end.

I hope we get involved in more of these kalinga-things because despite the extreme exhaustion, it's always fun to work with Statsoc people. :) I'll miss having to do this with them. :(

Anyway, I went to Stat for the Finlog meeting and to help in organizing the kits. We finished up early so I decided to just go to Katipunan to spend my idle time while waiting for my mom. For some fortunate and "idle" reason also, Tonico drove me to National Bookstore. Just then, I realized I've got more "me" time now that org duties are nearly done with. I went to the racks of books and listed a few which I plan to purchase very very very soon:

Son of A Witch - Gregory Maguire
Remember Me? - Sophie Kinsella
Brida - Paulo Coelho
Life of Pi - Yann Martel
Thanks for the Memories - Cecelia Ahern
The Choice - Paulo Coelho
Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus - John Gray.

I'm so excited!!!! I want to go back to reading non-acad books! hahahahahahah Oh well. Time to settle with Lieberman at the moment.

PS. I plan to write about Mary but it's just too sad at the moment. :( :( :( Hhhaaayyy...

REJECTION

Everyone in this house has been shooing me because of my "virus". I had fever last Tues and for some fortunate reason, revived myself from it but lost my voice the next day. Now I'm suffering from ultra-dry cough and still barely speaking because it hurts and it frustrates me 'cause I can't even complete a simple sentence. My voice LITERALLY and HURTFULLY fades every time I talk.

So yes, my throat sores big time. I can't eat chocolates so my mom walked to their ref, took a box of chocolates and ate it right in front of me with a sinister smile. Grabe. And then just moments ago, ate sprayed alcohol all over the room and and even asked me to sleep in another room because she's scared she might catch "MY" virus and she won't be able to go to the freakin' beach tomorrow! After a while, she chewed (YES, CHEW!!!) vit. C so she would immunities against ME!!!

I feel so rejected :( :( :(

Anyhow, time to smother my face with vicks.

hahahaha

PS. Nikko BELIEVES I am the reason for his cough.

gggrrr

Sana UP Fair pa din :) (:

Haha Minus all the stress and the jj's, this year's UP Fair is truly unforgettable. I guess I had my fair share of a "Valentine's Week".


I'm certainly going to miss every night of it. :)

Craziest Valentine's by far :)

I really don't post entries about my going out with Nikko but this Valentine's was quite crazy that I can't help but write about it and laugh my head off.

Valentine's day started quite bad for most people who went to Loverage 3. The whole jj-incident (just go to gma news for details) scared everyone and made us leave the fair grounds early. The concert was postponed due to the jj's uncontrollable anxiety to get in. Anyway, despite having to take the ASLAT the next day at 7am, I stayed to watch the Valentine's countdown and fireworks which was.. okay. Haha. I guess I was just used to watching UP fireworks as grand as that of the UP Lantern Parade's. So yes, the jj's got really intense and we had no other choice but to stay at the Educ building while watching QCPD and the firemen disperse the jj's.

I got home around 2:30 then slept at 3am. I had to wake up at 5am and force myself to be extremely awake while answering the ASLAT. After which, I went home and took a short nap then got ready to go out with Nikko.

The first crazy thing we did was watch Pink Panther2. Hahaha. Steve Martin was extremely funny! Then Nikko decided to drop by at the LSGH fair and because he left his car at Econ, we just took a cab to GH. There were less people at the fair compared to their Kabihasnan thingamajig 2 years ago. I got to tour the campus again and then Nikko went shopping for La Salle items! Hahahahaha Ate the perennial fair food: SNOW CONE!!!!!!!!!! :) After which, we decided to go back to reality and submerge ourselves once again in our own world: the UP Fair.

Ironically, there weren't any cabs travelling along GH. We waited for quite some time until we decided to walk to EDSA and cross it to get to Galleria. So yes............... we walked ACROSS EDSA amidst the hustle and bustle of humungous buses!!!! haha And because of the unbelievable scarcity of cabs on a late Saturday evening, we took a bus to Philicoa!!!!! :D fun fun fun. Then we took a Philcoa jeep to UP. Unfortunately, Nikko had to pee so we planned on going down at the waiting shed beside the Main Lib. For some crazy reasons, we went down in front of the CAL New Building. It took us a while to realize that we were so stupid for going down at the wrong stop haha. So we walked (again!) to the main lib. hahahahaha

We weren't expecting so many people to line up for Saturday's Fair because of what happened during Loverage3. Suprisingly, the end of the line was already near the main lib entrance. We had to look for Jan and Audrey to make singit :) Haha We found them and finally made our way to the fair grounds.

I think all instances would sound mundane to most people but when you spend it with someone who's worth all the pawis, pollution and the pagod for walking and having to commute, those instances turn into extra special moments :)

You're crazy buddy! But thank God you are. :)

Belated Happy Hearts' Day to everyone :)

Amazing

I think I know why some things happened the way they did yester yester night and today.

Someone's reading my blog and actually spilling it to the person concerned!!!! Haha. I did not even mention any name in particular. So how did I know about it? SECRET. TOO OBVIOUS. :)

Well hhmm, I think that's what I have to pay for posting everything in here. :D Hope you enjoyed, there will be more. Don't worry :D

I've been pushing myself to blog for days but apparently, I just haven't been experiencing anything noteworthy. Hhhmm. Well.

Poor me.

I think he got to read my post. Well anyway...

Because he said sorry...
Because he's a bit more accommodating now...............

I deleted my angry post and forgive him. haha

Sadness fills my heart.................... :(

To say that life is too short is an understatement. Rather, life is very much unpredictable. It begins when no one really expects it much to spur and it ends when no one really anticipate it to happen. (Emphasis on the word really).

Tonight, after our BOD meeting, my dad and I rushed to the hospital to visit my aunt Tita Vangie. At first I thought it was one of those heart attacks she has been having since she's beginning to age but much to my surprise, it was way way way way way (and i mean way) different from a mild infarction. As I type, she's breathing through a respirator and in a comatose.

The first stories I heard was that she was rushed to the hospital this morning and was in critical condition since then. When I got to talk my mom I realized she was brought to the hospital last night, DEAD ON ARRIVAL. She was revived but unfortunately, has been sufferring from seizures. The revival caused her blood to shoot up and the seizures caused the death of quite a number of her brain cells.

Now she's lying in a hospital bed, unresponsive and "barely" alive. My other aunt, who is a nurse, told us that she can still hear us.

Maybe the fact that she's still in bed breathing should be enough to just feel fine at the moment and be very much hopeful. We are really hopeful but we have been told that we have to prepare. Even my aunt nurse talked to my cousins (Tita Vangie's children) already to ask forgiveness and to tell her they love her... while she can still hear us. It's a bit frustrating and very much regretful but yes......... she's nearing another beginning.

Grabe! At the moment I am so regretful. Now I know why I can't forget her face when she asked me to go to her birthday party. I wanted to! I really wanted to! I don't know what but something was telling me that I NEEDED to go to her birthday. But, I didn't. I do have a reason but right now, I don't think it was a plausible excuse. Bad bad niece. Bad bad niece! :( :( :(

I'm sad. I'm really sad. :(

I remember during our Christmas reunion when I was going all around the place trying to get a picture of my dad's siblings. Then she stopped me and asked to take a picture of her. (She is the wife of my dad's eldest brother). I took her picture and then went on with what I was planning to do. It was the first time she asked me to do that. I feel like it was a sign...

3 days... 3 days.... 3 days......

Our clan is in grief right now, hoping for everything to be fine but preparing ourselves as well. :( It's a hard time for all of us and at many times tonight, my tears had been attempting to overflow. I'm trying to keep it in and show the rest of them that I'm strong. Maybe that will help 'em be strong too.

3 short days........................................................

:( Oh God, do whatever it is that will make her feel better, whether it leaves us in grief or not. All we know is that whatever happens, You'll be there to help us get through this.


We trust in You.