My dad always has an urban legend to tell about his childhood. He keeps on making up stories that to earn money when he was still a kid, he would sell ice-drops, corn cobs etc etc barefoot under the scorching sun. As a child, I was so amazed that he actually did those things and managed to earn his allowance from it without asking from his parents. I asked my grandmother about it and eventually I learned everything was a hoax. I tell him to stop creating his tales because I feel like it's offending my grandmother. :)) But of course, he has a lot in store for us.

Last night, on our way home from Makati, we passed by streetchildren sleeping on the gutter. I didn't know he was also looking at them when he suddenly spoke..

Dad: Mahirap ung ganyan, matulog sa kalye.
Me: mm-hmm. Kawawa naman sila
Dad: Oo, malamig ung kalye.. etc etc etc
Me: *weirded out* Pano mo naman nalaman?!
Dad: Na-experience ko na matulog sa kalye (super paawa voice)
Me: Ha?!! Bakit ka naman natulog sa kalye?

Dad: Wala, gusto ko lang subukan.

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My dad, bow.

I believe my dad is an intelligent man. But at this point, his skepticism has gotten out of hand. :))

Whatever is going on inside my dad's mind and no matter how many urban legends he has, I love him to bits!

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY PAPA! <3

I never really relied much on Facebook stuff, quizzes and whatnots. I just answer them for the heck of it and because they're so much fun but I never tried believing any of the results. But lately, I've been hooked on "See What God Wants You to Know Today". They don't have unique results. Nikko has received exactly the same message as I did before, only on a different day. But as Han said, it's not the message but the time I got the message.

Today, this is what I got:

Fay got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.

That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

During the Sunday mass, I kept on asking God if what I'm doing right now is proper, if it's going to help me find what I really want and if it's going to lead me to the success I am meant to have. I think I just got an answer. :)

The Failure I've been Wanting to Escape

It's been 3 months since I got the news and until now I still cringe remembering that night when I cried like hell, that night when Ox, Love and Nikko stayed beside me until I was able to let my crying subside just for even a while. It was something I think I will never forget. I must say I have never felt so depressed in my entire life because I thought I could never fail in anything at all. My mind was so cramped up with that incorrigible notion that it tore me to pieces when I found out I failed.

Fast forward to now, I don't think I have entirely recovered from the pain. It is just too much to take and the terrible wrathed-feeling hasn't left me. The loneliness still creeps in and I still get sad despite my smiles and laughs. I am very much happy, yes, but that part of my life has left such indelible mark. It feels like they have nailed it on me and it causes pain from time to time. I've never been over it. It's just that I'm better at controlling my emotions now. I see it now as a joke especially from people I am very very very much close to. I owe such resilience I have to my friends, family and buddy. I don't think I'd find enough strength to wake up to a new day and actually face this horrendous chapter had it not for them.

Now is another phase. At this very moment I am typing, I feel a bit weak. I sort of think of what could've been but I'm trying to block all negative thoughts. I keep on telling myself that there's nothing to be sad about. I should start counting my blessings and not my troubles.

I know how what happened made a few people happy (duh! galing mismo sa kanila haha). At first it pained me to know they did find such satisfaction from that failure but after 3 months, I really no longer give a damn about them. I'll live my life, they'll live theirs and I guess they should give me credit for making them happy for some time.

And yes, I have fallen. I have fallen more in love with the people who keep on trying their best to make forget. :)

This next phase is for them. :) and well maybe, for the other THEM as well. :)

Everyone's doing this so ako na din :p

Tagged by BA :)

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Water.
2. last phone call = Dad.
3. last text message = Nikkolangot.
4. last song you listened to = Beethoven's piece. haha (I'm watching Copying Beethoven)
5. last time you cried = The whole month of April

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yes
7. been cheated on = I don't know.
8. kissed someone & regretted it =No
9. lost someone special = Yes.
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Nope :)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Blue
13. Red
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = A lot! :)
16. Fallen out of love = Nope nope nope :)
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes. Kung barkada mo ba naman barkada ko. haha
18. Met someone who changed you = Yeeesss... Sir Charlie (ay 2008 ko ata siya na-meet haha)
19. Found out who your true friends were = Definitely
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yeeessss :)) Ewan ko kung maaalala ni Tricia
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list = I wonder why people answer no to this.

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = 95% din. The rest basta taga-CSR, ok na. :p
24. Do you have any pets = Pompom (pomeranian. Hence, the name :))), Tutee (half pom, half mini pinscher), Manny (fighting fish).
25. Do you want to change your name = No :)
26. What did you do for your last birthday = It's always like a month-long celeb. I had extreme fun with people I love most. :)
27. What time did you wake up today = 11:30 :)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night= Spending time with someone. :)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = October!!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Kaharap ko siya ngayon. Kinakausap ako. Haha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Taking 49 during the 2nd sem :)
32. What are you listening to right now = Mom talking
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Not yet.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = The gloomy weather
35. Most visited webpage = Plurk
37. Nicknames = Fay, Kaye..
38. Relationship Status = Content and very much happy:).
39. Zodiac sign = Capricorn
40. He or She? = He
41. Elementary? = Colegio de Sta. Rosa Makati
42. Middle School = Wala
43. High school/College = CSR Makati / UP Diliman
44. Hair colour = Dark brown
45. Long or short = Long
46. Height = 5' 3"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Hhhmm Celebrity crushes
48: What do you like about yourself? =I have the friends I have :)
49. Piercings= 1 on either ear.
50. Tattoos = None
51. Righty or lefty= Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = None :)
53. First piercing = Both ears
54. First best friend = Patnog :)
55. First sport you joined = Volley
56. First vacation = Grabe naman. I don't know. haha
58. First pair of trainers = Ha?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Just finished lunch.
60. Drinking = None
61. I'm about to = Play bejeweled
62. Listening to = The rain. yeeeesss :))
63. Waiting for = the rain to stop.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Of course. :)
65. Get Married? = Yes.
66. Career? = Tsss.. geting on it.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses= Hugs :)
69. Shorter or taller= Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older by face and isip :))
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = :))Stomach siguro :))
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Troublemaker.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No.
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Yes
79. Sex on first date = Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart = Malay.
81. Had your own heart broken = I guess.
82. Been arrested = Nope.
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = Yes. :(
85. Fallen for a friend? = Yes :)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Of course :)
87. Miracles = There won't be any if you' don't believe :)
88. Love at first sight = Noooo
89. Heaven = Yes. :)
90. Santa Claus = yes!.
91. Kiss on the first date = Nope :).
92. Angels = Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = I don't count the others e.
95. Did you sing today? = Not yet. Later inside the shower haha
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = Nope, never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = 2nd sem
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Lantern Parade :)(:.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = Yes but love consumes the fear when it's there na FOR REAL.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? =Yes.

I went on a 13-day training on Fundamentals in Baking and Pasty Arts at the CCA from May 11-May 27. I've been baking at home with my mom but I never really had a way of doing any of the products without referring to the recipe and following it just about how I am instructed. After the training, I figured that despite the fact that baking is an exact science, it's still how you maneuver your hands in every mix and your tasteful way of doing some surplus over some ingredients that makes your produce showcase your uniqueness. It's always important to think of who you are preparing the food for and how you feel about that person.

The training was quite expensive and I never really thought my parents would agree to send me there for 13 days. They were actually eyeing the 6-month program but unfortunately, my schedule does not permit me to pursue it. As I've said, it was quite expensive and despite my want to really enrol I thought that 13 days would really be short. I can get training for about 3 days for a much much much much lesser tuition. But to our surprise, CCA did a good job on this short course. I got to learn how to spice up different desserts which I intend to do for my family, friends and the business I've been saving for.

Right now, I'm at the stage of re-learning from what I've learned. I have had friends taste my finished products and yes they were a bit disappointed (haha!). I think I really don't have the skills to be at the kitchen but I'm really trying. :) Well anyway, I think people should give this short course a try. I met a lot of people and it's very amazing how I got close to them with only 13 days to get to know each other. :)

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The Hayden Kho - Katrina Halili Issue

If I'm some bitch, I think I would just tell the media to just SHUT UP. But being a woman, I think I should feel some sympathy over Katrina Halili and the rest of the girls victimized by the scandal. Well yes, I've been so sympathetic ever since the news broke out. Women are created by God to be taken care of and respected by men. I do have boy friends and I know that sensual stuff like these are normal to them. It never really surprised me if they have pornographies on their laptops and stacks of XXX dvd's at home even if I do let out some feeling of eewiness. Hehe :)

As the news would have it, this is not the first case that someone from the industry was dastrically exposed in such a sexual and must I say inhumane manner. If this is not the first then the senate (fine, the government in general) would have done something even way way way back before to stop scandals like this to happen. It has happened to Marcos and many others and it's only now they realize that a law should be instituted to penalize acts like this. What the hell? Aren't they like a lifetime too late do that? And now the media and senate are hounding everyone regarding this issue just because they don't know what to do to such unpunishable crime.

It's getting all too annoying. Around 90% of the news are about Hayden and Katrina. What else should the people know about it? If they solve it, would we finally have enough food to feed our unfortunate citizens? If they solve it, would they finally convince people to stop doing acts that contributes to global warming? If they solve it, would people know then who really should take office next year? It's causing too much disgrace to the women involved and as the media continue to delve into details, a lot of names also surface. We do have the right to know about issues like this but personally I do not think that sensitive matters as this should be highly sensationalized. If they're goal is to get the sympathy of people, well they're starting to lose it.

I think for once they should minimize tackling the matter so Katrina would have some time to grieve on her own and think about what she has to do about it without the public getting too much into a problem she must face as an indivdual whose integrity was tarnished and not only as a celebriy who has to clear her name. In fairness to Hayden, despite being the man who did all taping, the issue is WHO SPREAD THE VIDEOS and not WHO MADE IT. It's so sick how the senate condemns him of trying to tape his private moments with his girls when really, there are lot in the country who does that. Actually, it's confusing if they're trying to look on the details of why he made the videos or who opened pandora's box. As how I see it, they only want to condemn Hayden Kho just because Katrina Halili is doing so and it would be much more pleasurable and an awww-momentously created act for the public if they would side on the victim.

I heard that what had happened was against the Doctors' Code of Ethics (if there is such) and invalidating Hayden's license would be inevitable. Give the man a break for crying out loud. A medical license is not something you wake up to the morning after hard-partying. If this happens maybe then they should try to search every doctor's hard drive for scandals. They're not even sure if Hayden really made it for the purpose of selling or fabricating copies. Katrina Halili has every right to throw all curses to Hayden and feel all wrath for him and even concretize that wrath. She, along with the other women, are the only ones who have these rights and no one else.

I believe that the people we have put into office and who are currently trying to solve this problem are very intelligent. More so, I know that the media is only performing its duties. But like any normal person, you just have to know when to lie-low on certain things and just hype it up when you finally found the real score. They would say that people demands publicized proceedings on this. But what do they really want? To protect those involved or to just let people know that "hey look, we're acting on this. We're so great.".

Hhhm.. I think I just got sick of hearing stuff about this. From the afternoon until the news in the evening, this is all they are talking about. What the hell? We have a country to save, don't we?

Lalalalalalalala :)

Must love weekends :)

CCA Day 1!

Today marked my first day at the CCA. I got there around 7:30AM despite the 8AM calltime. I should have known that during first days, instructors give a large leway for latecomers. Well, anyway, I pictured it to be boring. It was a 7-hour lecture with new faces so what should I expect? But 'lo and behold Chef Harold Punsalan. I don't know how he did it but I really tried to be receptive about everything he was talking about (from foodborne illness to all those salmonella etc etc).

I can't very much put into detail everything he discussed because it really was 7 (or even more) freakin' hours of food lectures. I made a few friends, two to be exact. Well, it is entirely hard to start any conversation during lectures so I just befriended those who sat beside me. One was Bea, the CCA owner's daughter. She's also from UPD so we got to talk about a lot of stuff from grades to a number of controversial people. Haha. The other was Ate Susan, owner of Bethany Dream Cakes. She showed me pictures of her works and she was really.. wow... great at what she's doing. You can check her multiply by clicking on the link. :)

Okay, here are a few things that got stuck on my mind, the rest are just scribbled on my readings:

* there's actually a proper refrigerator arrangement and i'm about to that to our fridge this weekend
* never buy canned goods that are dented or have bulges.

... 2 lang?

I have a lot in mind but I'm just too damn tired going around Gateway during the lunchbreak.

Basta, I enjoyed big time (even though Chef made me feel like a geek because I finished the culinary math exercises ahead and it was so nakakahiya because now everyone thinks I'm the odd one out). I can't wait for tomorrow! :) We start the dirty jobs na! Yey!! :D