9 mornings and my life.

I am definitely done with Simbang Gabi! Woohoo! 7 night and 2 dawn masses! :) It feels extremely good despite my friends telling me that only half of my wish will come true because I attend anticipated masses. Toink. Hehe. I believe in God. He'd give it to me if it's time for me to have it. :)

Speaking of Simbang Gabi, I've been intrigued by Nine Mornings. It's a local film starring Donita Rose and Piolo Pascual (well, I suppose). Nikko has watched it n times and he's been talking about since last year's simbang gabi. Actually, the thought of Simbang Gabi excites him because he knows Cinema One will be streaming Nine Mornings. So what do I do? Search for Nine Mornings Torrent!!! Haha :) And I can't freakin' find one!!! :( I'm so bored and it's the only thing I want to watch tonight. But okay, I'll just watch Love Actually for the nth time and fall in love again and again and again. :)

But first, I'll try to reflect on tonight's homily. Haha. I love it when priests end their homilies with rhetoric questions because, as rhetoric as they may sound, they make you feel like there's an answer. It's just that you have to dig in deep and think think think or even feel feel feel. Tonight's question was not rhetoric though. It has an answer but it's just quite hard to fathom what suits it.

HOW IS YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW?

Diba? How in the world will you answer this? Okay, I'll give it a shot. :)

First, academically. I can say that back in highschool I was one of the top. Creme of the crop as how they would put it. I made it to the best university and for some unfortunate reason, found the mediocre in me. Yes, it's hell to experience how it is being on top at all times and now find yourself, well, doing just fine. It was frustrating at first but I learned to live with it. It's not like I resolved to no longer aim for the gold. I just learned not to dwell on it and to trust myself that I am at my best in everything I do in school. If I fall short, I just to have to stand up again and move and go on.

Org stuff.
After council, I somehow felt the need for me to rest. Council was too much stress and I know that running for office is, again, putting myself in dire pressure. And so... I WAS RIGHT. A lot transpired since the very day I sent all those election stuff to the then outgoing Board of Directors. At many times it was hell. At times it was heaven. But at all times it was triumphant. I realized that a major and most influential part of having to work and be of service is to be thrown into a pit of hungry lions. You subject yourself to many threats and stuff that could probably harm you and what makes you a good officer is that you try to turn those lions into lambs. You don't tame them but at least put yourselves in their shoes. It's gruelling. It's not as easy as it is said. But the trying makes you a better person and the success you make out of it makes you an excellent friend to them.

Well, right now, despite and inspite of things had happened, I hope that I and the rest of the BOD was able to exemplify to the whole of Statsoc our intentions. I'm hoping also that aspirants won't be scared. It's going to be hard but what's easy in life, anyway? The more you open yourself to opportunities, the more learned person you become.

High School friends.
I'm glad I somehow have to time to catch up. I wish I have more, though. But I'm very much happy that even after four years, the connection never faltered. I still can be myself when I'm with them and they've been constructive critiques whenever they notice a change in me.

College Friends.
I guess my "barkada" life is an open book. It has been so controversial and has caused many instances to happen. I do apologize to everyone who in some way got involved in everything. It wasn't intentional of course. I'm sorry we lost control of what is/was happening. Okay, truth is.. I am not so cold as to saying we are all better off this way. Let's lay the cards and admit that a even a tiny part of our heart asks a lot of what ifs including, what if we're still all together right now? I'd like to believe that that tiny part exists in everyone of us. 'Cause if not, then we must be dead cold numb.

It's not a silly away-bati thing anymore. There's too much to compromise and to patch up. Even as mature persons, we still can't find the way how we can end this somewhat barren connection. I can't even think of the right words to suit it. All I can say that what's happening is really a waste. What could've been a flourishing friendship has come to .... I don't know.

But for now, I'm just going to look at it as a time off. It's frustrating but I know it's impossible to start anew and just put on a clean slate because what happened is not that shallow. Even if people come up and suggest.. talk, compromise. It's not that. I don't know what we need yet. But we'll figure it out soon, I know. And by that time things would be much different. I guess we just can't find the perfect environment to reconcile what needs to be reconciled.

I don't know how long it will take, a year.. 2 years.. 10 years.. 30 years. Basta, everything will workout in the end. If it doesn't then it's not yet the end.

Stat Friends.
Haha! Grabe! If benta is the word then it must mean Stat people. :) I'm glad I found a lot of friends, well, other than my barkada. I do find myself in another dimension when I'm with them. It's a great great feeling to walk out of the classroom and greet many many people. And it's not because you know each other's name or existence but because you really do know them.

Family.
Tss. I have a great family. Waters may be troubled at time but all is well. I couldn't ask for more but to have mama, papa, ate, boying and bicoy always there.

Buddy.
Yehess. Haha I do choose that this aspect of my life remain private. But as it is, it's hard 'cause we've got Ox and Vlad as friends and the whole organization to witness everything. I guess at this point, we have never been this happier and closer. We've had many many many arguments this year and most of the time it because of our different perception concerning work. Aarrggh. It felt so bad during that times but fortunately, we've grown now and learned to be more open about things

I kept telling him that it's hard to take care of a president. Haha The members were like his anak so I end up also tending his children. I remember one time when we were to go out on an Awitan practice night. The night before it, he was worrying who will go to Area 2 and fill the water containers and bring it to Vinzon's. He was worrying who will do the groceries for their food. He was worrying who still stay with them during the practice. Etc. etc. I would've been annoyed but I actually found it amusing how he manages to be like that. I see that side of him most people don't and I swear it amazes me.

He's my buddy, bestfriend, kuya, dad, stress ball, annoy-Er, PA (haha) and everything else. He refuses to be called my bestfriend but he is! Haha Life is much much more bearable and a lot more enjoyable because I have him around. :)

The three months left we have in school scares me though. Hhhhmm.. but I just have to let be :) He makes me happy and I'm hoping I do the same thing to him :)

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SO YEAH.. I guess my life is pretty much of a taste of sugar and spice. I do have healthy troubles and incomparable amount of happiness :)

This is my life and I love it.

THANK YOU LORD. :)

hahaha

babies!

Gifts from CRIBS volunteers.

I went with my mom to CRIBS this afternoon to bring some stuff for the babies. This time we brought stuff which came from my mom's friends. Our biggest thanks to them for helping out! :) I'm hoping that the next time we visit, we'd be tagging along more sacks of diapers and cereals from our friends or, even better, they'd be joining us in spending a couple of hours.

We usually go to CRIBS during the weekends and it's barely filled with volunteers. Sometimes there'd be people from Ateneo and La Salle (well, I suppose) doing their outreach. Other than them, there would just be maybe a couple of volunteers. This Sunday, the whole place was filled with people: barkadas, people from institutions, families and a number of people who just came from the a Christmas Party held at the adjacent home for the sexually-abused. So when I stepped in, there were around 5 volunteers inside the babies' (those almost a year old) room and most of the babies were crawling on the floor. Some of the other volunteers were also sprawled on the floor with some toddlers watching Barney. They were so cute and despite the perplexity in their eyes, you could tell they were very much happy to have people around, carrying them, playing with them and most of all hugging them. :)

Those babies always remind me of nieces and nephews. I wonder how they were at that very moment I was with babies from other families. But it was more of curiousity than worry. Unlike the kids I was with this afternoon, my nieces and nephews could either be in the comforts of their own homes or somewhere else in this continent. Thing is, they've got someone to hug them every given day. They need no visitors whatsoever to get some affection. Heck, they'd even try to drive you away when you get all so gigil with them.

CRIBS babies are entirely different. They yearn for you. The moment my mom opened the door Angel, a year-old baby, was calling her from her crib. My mom went to her and Angel suddenly raised her arms asking to be carried. My mom wasn't able to play with the rest of the babies Nor even go to other rooms because Angel won't let ther go. She kept on sleeping on her shoulders and cry whenever mom tries to put her down. She even hurt herself throwing tantrums, forcing my mom to pick her up again. The warmth they get from strangers are exceptional. They don't know us and they probably never will get to know each one who carries them. All they want is a hug, touch... any gesture that will give them warmth. Feel their need for affection once they start touching you with their little hands and giving you tight a hug.

On a cold and chilly season like Christmas, these babies need our hugs more. The CRIBS home would also filled with warmth, figuratively and technically, if there are more people paying the babies a visit. Volunteers are not required to bring anything other than their sincere care for the babies. :)(: More so, we can try to give them a home for the holidays. CRIBS actually allow foster parents to take care of a baby for a period of time. It would probably be the best gift we can give to a very young stranger. :)

Oh wow. No updates for a very long time. I think I would have something sensible to talk about later, after I get back from Cribs. :)

Bye :)

Most of my friends have been posting their wish-lists. I've been thinking about mine and realized how very much of a materialistic earthling I am. But hey, what could I ask for? I've been blessed enough. Nonetheless, I'll try to run-down some of the things I really wish I had, have, will have. Hahaha :)

1. Red hot Porsche
2. Okay, Mazda 3 would be more realistic.
3. Home theater system with Dolby Sounds and lazy-boy seats! Oh yeah.
4. iMac
5. Balenciaga bag that's not too adult-looking
6. A year supply of Starbuck's Peppermint Brownie!
7. Plasma TV in my bedroom
................ to reality............
8. A stable landline in the guard's house so it wouldn't be so hard to call them everytime.
9. Water in the clubhouse's swimming pool (We pay for it for crying out loud and all there is is a basin of dried leaves)
10. Any bag. :) I love love love love love bags! :)
11. Body Shop silver eyeliner and Lip & Cheek Tint
12. Carribean Cruise!!!
13. European tooooourrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
14. A visit to Egypt
15. More time and money to go to CRIBS. Grabe, I really love staying there.
16. Internal stability (in every way "internal" should be put)
17. Love for all the people I love
18. More and more and more friends especially now that I'd be out in the bigger world very soon
19. Law school!
20. My ipod. Yes. MY IPOD. I really mean the one I lost. MY U2 IPOD. ggrrrr.
21. More reasons to laugh, live and love :) :) :)

I'll go think of more stuff to wish for haha

FOUR STRAIGHT DAYS

I wish I realized that my phone has a built-in camera so I could've taken a shot of tonight's sky. Most of us may have seen it and yes, there was a smiley up in the dark skyline. I don't know how but it suddenly placed me in a very perky mode. I was so happy seeing it that I found myself smiling until I reached home. I wish we could all see it every night. It does create a magical effect. I felt all my anxieties flushed away just by looking at it. :)

So so so. There's nothing else sensible to blog other than I AM SURRENDERING MY SOCIAL LIFE TO JAG&LEE. Yes, it's time yet again for the 4-day sale. During those times we (Statsoc as well as UP Batangan) members man the Jag & Lee Bazaar at the UP ISSI from 7-am to 10pm for four straight days. What do we do? Entertain people, unearth clothes from piles of already messed up stashes and at the end of the day, colorcode the clothes, fold them and put them neatly on stacks. And then the cycle goes on and on.

FOUR STRAIGHT DAYS. DECEMBER 4-7. Our lives would just be classes, jag&lee, classes, jag&lee......................... Won't you help us out? :(

Visit the UP ISSI from December 4-7. Purchase up to 70%-discounted Jag & Lee pants, shorts tops and accessories. This would be a good buy especially for bulk-buyers!

So please do visit and at least help spare our lethargy with a little purchase. :) hahahaha :)

I super hate this weekend.

It's starting again. But okay, I've been used to it so here comes my nonchalance yet again. Boo. Hate it.

Kit took a shot of this. Haha Wala lang, ang kulit! I never thought you could post something as precise as this. :) This was taken from one of the comfort rooms in my high school. As how they put it in high school. CLAYGO. :)

HELLO INCOHERENCE :)

And so, I took this year's LAE today. I should be honest and say that the exam was typical of an entrance exam. Heck, it's even easier than the UPCAT because it had no science nor tagalog subsections. So yey for me! But thing is, if it was a typical exam for me, it would also seem to be a typical exam for the rest of the examiners. So yeah, I know I have a very much slim chance of getting in. But thing is.... I GAVE IT A SHOT :)

I just have to insert this ------------->>> (I was very much inspired today) :D :D :D

I was so hungry after sitting there for 5 hours so I ate buffalo wings, pizza and pasta! Hahahahaha. And even bought myself a box of banoffee pie! :) I just thought I needed a scrumptuous meal after tormenting my very brain cells. Oh by the way, I got my planner today! Yahoo. Now I have to fill up Nikko's card (until next year maybe :p).

Hhhmm, well. :) Gnyt gnyt :)

My DSL was down for almost 3 days so I've been missing on a lot of stuff online. I missed checking multiply, chatting with friends and posting in this blog. But oh well, I guess there was a reason why my connection got screwed up. I missed the hype of things going on but it was better that way. I would'nt have the capacity to stop myself.

Two nights 'til LAE. I should be studying right now but I'm so tamad. I need more motivation and besides, I don't know what to study. I thought of reading newspapers (even issues way way way back) but figured it won't be a practical way to spend my time. I might as well just watch the news. I thought of browsing through the dictionary and feed myself with out-of-this-craziness words but I figured it isn't something memorize-able. I should just read Anne Rice or Gabriel Garcia Marquez books, instead. I don't know what to read on! aarrgghhh. There's just too many stuff I know I have to be aware of before sitting down to take the LAE. I just don't have the time to study everything 'cause I'm feeling very lazy right now. Haha

That's just it. I have to find tops for tomorrow's pictorials :)

Hello 2nd sem!

And hello stress!!!!!!!!!!!!

It has only been 3 days since classes started but I'm so freakin' tired already!!!!!!!!!!! VERY VERY TIRED. :(

aarrgghh.

I am a grammar police. It's not because I write and speak flawlessly because I know I do not. It's because every one of us is a grammar police, consciously or unconsciously. We find ourselves reacting to misused phrases, wrong enunciated words and faulty dictions. No one can deny it. It's simply innate.

Since it's Sunday today, I spent half of my day sitting down for my review class. So far, we've covered English, Logic and Math stuff in about 10 sessions and we're down to abstract and critical reasoning (which is, by the way, a big headache). Meaning, that whatever I write here did not come from our English instructor. I would have let it passed if the rest of my classmates were not reacting on it. But they kept on snickering! I am a good student so instead of conspicuously talking about my instructor's boo-boos, I wrote it down my notebook. Here are a few:

I do not have something to write on. (She was looking for a marker).

Look something like... (Look for something like).

Find the one most helps (Find the one that helps the most).

It ask you how

Does it directs?

Does it points out?

The way you argues...

Dowing su (Doing so).

... And more.

There goes our 8 thousand pesos! But mind you, she knows her craft well and I think that's what's important. She talks so fast though as if she has memorized everything that it sometimes seems impossible to understand what she's saying. Then again, she's great in teaching super-duper-headache-maker critical reasoning.

INCOHERENCE................... INCOHERENCE

Just when I thought enlistment would be a breeze... I REALIZED I HAD TO GO THROUGH A TSUNAMI.

Aarrrgggh. I still haven't paid my tuition and I left my papers to be assessed so I can pay it tomorrow. We sat from 10 am to 4pm, with an hour-long break for lunch, waiting to be enlisted in the subjects we thought we have been enlisted to. Grabe. The grueling agony! Hhhaayy.

But okay, it was our bad. We did not do that ESF thing. I haven't been doing it for semesters and it didn't really affect me much. Apparently, it hit me right through every single nerve today and made me suffer an extreme headache I now have to nurse! Aarrgghh.

Oh well.

Just before hell breaks loose, I decided to go out with some hs friends to watch Highschool Musical 3 and confirm much of the chimis going around. Hahaha :) Must love hs :)

HSM3 is nice. I liked it more than the 1st one (and because I did not even bother watching the HSM2). This has more sense it and for some weird reasons, it can make you cry. haha. It's just that I totally hate Vanessa Hudgen's singing! Aaarrgghh.

Mmm 'kei. I'll be a good daughter and fix all grad school requirements today just so my mom would stop bothering me about it. Darn.

late halloween post!

This is not to spook anyone or something. I just have to share this and maybe expect some few explanation apt for what happened.

I do believe in ghosts, if that's what we should call them. And that's because I have seen, heard and felt some since my childhood. My mom thinks I inherited such capacity from her because she does have a third eye. I don't know if I share the same sense or if it just so happens that we live in houses with "boarders". But thing is, I know when there's something else... I tend to get scared a lot. But okay, my point is that I do believe in them.

Tonight, on our way home, my mom told me quite an unbelievable story. Last Nov.1 while she was busy preparing lunch, she received a text message. She opened her fliptop phone and screened through it, surprised that it was from a friend..... a dead friend. (As I type this, I'm all spooked out). She managed to keep it from all of us thinking that someone else might be using her friend's phone. The text contained an inspirational message with a very mysterious ending.... "God bless, ading". Ading was what her friend calls her. It's an Ilocano term for a younger sister/brother.

This morning, in the office, she learned that five other people received the text. They tried to phone their friend's husband and asked who was using the phone. Appalled, he told them that he kept all her personal belongings in a box and have never dared to open it since the interment for apparent emotional reasons. They requested that he check the phone. He took it from the box and had it charged for some time since it hadn't been turned on for months (or so everyone thought). The moment he turned on the phone, messages sent as replies to her alleged Nov. 1 textbrig streamed in. For some more mysterious reasons, there were no messages in the sent item folder.

I was totally taken aback. It sounded impossible but I believed my mom. I don't know what that incident meant but I do hope you also pray for my mom's friend's soul.

Let's all pray for our deceased loved ones not only because it's Halloween but because they still our affection. :)

HIGH SCHOOL!

Omayg! I just can't help it. Someone just posted pictures in our hs batch's multiply site and I just can't help but reminisce :(

The Seduction

The Salute

Highschool Plays

Immersion

Retreats

Ara's unrelenting seduction

Chika :(

The best Mrs. A!

Teachers who just dropped by but made our life very much bearable!

Batch Presentations! (Yeah okay! I'm the one on top haha)

The chapel

The obligatory lady-like poses

The Batch spirit

The anxiety

The Caf


The flagpole!

The field!

and most of all....

THE GLORY.

I'm going back soon :) Nov. 27, I'll do everything I can just to be there!

Bicoy is my 11-year old cousin who just seems to love ditching the fact that boys have to chivalrous. He really doesn't see the need of being a gentleman. I thought maybe because he's among those boys who receive gifts and letters from random girls in school. He has actually grown irritable about that gift-giving stuff and would refuse reading letters and would refer to those girls as pathetic. Being the nice "ates" we are, Ate and I decided to teach him the gentleman's creed. Actually, we tried to start with the basic but failed to move on and decided to just let him be.

Ate: Bicoy, dapat buksan mo ung door para sa mga girls.
Bicoy: Hindi un kailangan.
Ate: Kailangan un, ano ka ba.
Bicoy: Edi magiging abusado!
Ate and I: HINDI!!!!!!!!!!
Me: Gusto mo ba pag kami ni ate, binubuksan namin ung mabibigat na doors?
Bicoy (with conviction): YUP!!!
Me: Ha?!
Bicoy: Dapat lalaki naman ung pinagsisilbihan.

*ate and I gave up*

I guess we just have to wait 'til he finds the girl who he thinks deserves his chivalry. I just think he should start training on it so if time comes he does find that girl, he'd be the perfect gentleman for her. But I do hope he starts considering what we taught him 'cause he doesn't even do it to us!

Hay naku.

I think I should start eliminating my identity in the world wide web. But the question is how. I don't even know passwords to my previous accounts or if I did have any accounts other than Multiply, Facebook, Friendster and this.

My uncle, this afternoon, admitted googling each of our names online. When he did mine, he found results about my passing college entrance exams, alumni listings and whatnots. All of a sudden I remembered I had blogs before. Private, not secret but private blogs. My mom once stumbled upon a blog containing an entry about this girl crushing enormously on a guy. She found it after googling my name and then started dropping hints when she got home. I totally did not know what she was talking about so I googled my name and found the entry she was referring to. Turns out, it was my friend, Ching's blog. My name directed her to Ching's site because I was enlisted in her list.

And what's worse? My mom told my dad that crushing thing even if it wasn't me!

Hay naku!

Anyway, I just don't want relatives to actually have a scoop on my entire social life and then crucify me about how I behave online. Haha

Basta.

Jason Mraz always takes my heart away :)

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I'm back!

... home and online! :)

I missed online life for quite some time because of my faulty connection. I was not able to access my mails and log in to YM. The only sites I was able to visit were Multiply, Facebook and CRS. Boo. Today, I decided to turn off the modem for hours and when I tried logging in, it finally worked. Hmp. I should have done it before.

Anyway, I just got from our semplan. Yey! It was, by far, the most relaxing semplan I have ever been to. First because it's 2nd sem and second, we were at Crowne Plaza. :) Credits to my cousin, Ate Ying, for giving us a huge discount on the hotel room rates.

I'm very much tamad to blog about all the things we did. So, just visit my multiply and let the pictures speak for themselves. :)

clickity!

A few conversations that really made me laugh today: :)

Person 1: Liz, the greatest liar haha

Before the start of review class, I texted her this morning:
"Prince David tayo diba?"
I didn't get a reply. After 30 mins of wondering where my friend was, I convinced myself that she's at the other building. But she suddenly showed up beside me...

me: O! Dito ka ba?!
Liz: Hindi. I had to lie! hehe
me: How?!
Liz: Yung girl dun sa center, ung masungit pinapunta akong 2nd floor. Then pag-akyat ko tinanong ko si sir san ung english. Sabi niya sa kabila (Prince David). So I went down to the front desk uli.

*Front Desk*
Liz: Miss, sabi ni sir hindi daw ako dito.
Receptionist: Dito ka, sabi sa card mo.
Liz: Hindi, nagkamali daw siya.
Receptionist: Okay

*So she walked to Prince David*
*Front Desk*
Receptionist: Hindi ka dito. Dun ka sa kabila
Liz: Dito ako. Sabi nung miss sa kabila nagkamali sila.
Receptionist: Okay.

Andaming nagkamali. Aaaawww Liz! The things you have to go through just to be with me! :p

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Person 2: Dad
He was looking at mom intently and scrutinizing her skin

Dad: Nag-m-metathione ka pa ba?!
Mom: Hindi na. Bakit?
Dad: BAKIT HINDI KA NA NAGM-METATHIONE?!
*mom pouts*
Me: Bakit ako hindi pwede mag-metathione?
dad: because you're beautiful. :)
Mom: MEANING?!

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Person 3: This is the ultimate winner

Me: Ma, sabi ng mom ni Nikko I have to get an x-ray for my jaw. Kasi nag-c-click siya everytime..... blah blah blah
Mom: Kaya siguro maliit ears mo anak......... (sobbing)
Me: HA?!
Mom: Mamamamatay na anak koooo.............. (sobbing)
Me: MA!!!!!!!
Mom: Mamamatay rin akooo................ (sobbing)
Me: MA! Di ako ooperahan or something! Pinapahid lang ung gamot!
*mom straightens up*
Mom: Ah ganun ba, okay.

I've been online since yesterday and my laptop's already been running more than 24 hours straight and counting! Haha I've been helping my friends out with their paper and trying to be a "yaya". It's not like I want it but I tried cooking pansit canton for them and ended up messing up in the kitchen. I think I should give up trying to learn how to cook. I can't even cook a damn pansit canton! Ggggrrr

Well anyway, I guess I have to react to Mic's post about him beating me in Word Race and Literati. The fact that he had to post his triumph makes me feel SUPREME. :)) Lova ya Mic. :) GLORY WAS HIS WHEN HE BEAT ME. I was, again, SUPREME. :)) I may have poor reflexes but I resent anyone telling me I am very much poor in english. hahaha Joke :)

I haven't had enough sleep and I'm hoping to get one by the time I go home. And then tomorrow, salon salon salon! :)

That's it. :)

These are pictures I took last week during my breaks from studying. Hahahaha My dog
My room's light

Red Bell Peppers haha

Blah Blah.

Day 2 of Sembreak and I'm starting to get bored. Hehe. I slept at around 5am, woke up at 11, read The Time Traveler's Wife, slept, watched OTH, Gossip Girl, read and pretty much went on my day doing the same thing. Hehe

Now i'm trying to answer the Unilever essay and my head's blank. Ack! I have to think think think.

That's all :)

Highschool Highschool Highschool

Since it's already my sembreak, I decided to start it with the people I missed the most... highschool friends! But before going to Greenbelt, I dropped by Palma's because I was too early for the 4pm call time. While lethargically waiting for time to speed up, I browsed through old albums/scrapbook Palma made. I saw pictures from highschool normal days, field trips, retreats, prom, ball, cheering competitions and a lot more. Just then I realized...

I HAVE TO HAVE MY HIGHSCHOOL BODY BACK.

Damn. I know I am to blame (who else? haha). The summer after 4th year, I binged on every food I wanted. My mom tried to stop me but I told her that I can burn it because college would be painstakingly hard! Come freshman year, I was right. College is indeed hard but it did not occur to me that college also meant very long useless breaks! I found no means by which I can burn everything I was stuffed up with from the summer before! And the longer I stayed in UP, the more times I spend with friends, the more enticement I get to binge binge binge!

I remember paying visits to my highschool and trying to withstand my old teachers' comments that I've grown fatter over the few months. In the end they would say that it's more pleasant to see me that way than how I looked before (which ate referred to as my "adik-self"). But seeing the pictures was so frustrating. And so I decided that I should find ways to go back to my old body.

But then again, I realized that this is my last semester in college. I wouldn't want to spare having sumptuous lunch and untimely snacks at Long Island and isawans around the campus with my loved friends. So...

Next year na lang before work. Hahahahaha :) Must enjoy my last few months in college! :)

I dont' know what you're up to lately. So just stop it 'cause you're only earning yourself more 'disappointment' points. But since I'm still kind, I'm giving you the benefit of 'minimal' doubt because again, I'm sorry I don't understand. It's just not that easy to comprehend or I've been understanding enough even way way way way before that it has exhausted me already. Oh well. :)

On a much lighter note.......

First day of sembreak!!! Hello highschool friends! :) I'm going out tomorrow after I drop off external stuff at URC. Yay! I'm so excited. :)

Anyway, I'm busying myself reading Audrey Niffenegger's The Time Traveller's Wife :)a

Yey!!! I'm done... pretending. Haha

GUILTY

I am a very bad daughter.

My parents went out today and of course I decided not to go with them because I have to study. In fairness, I really am studying only a little loose about it. Haha I just don't feeling like having an intense study session because I totally don't understand what I'm studying!

So anyway, my parents were out. They called after a few hours asking if I wanted laptop sleeves for my Macbook. I was surprised because I've been asking them about it but they just shrug it off. But yes, they bought me a Mac laptop sleeves. And when I asked them why, they answered:

'Kasi kanina ka pa nag-aaral. Kawawa ka naman"

Oh my goodness. And so... INTENSE STUDYING STARTS NOW!!

procrastination for the last time

Oh my. I have an exam tomorrow in a course I barely understand and I haven't found the motivation to study. Haha. I'm so excited about my sembreak that I've been going about my days as if it is already sembreak! This is bad. :)

I'm starting in 14 minutes! :)

An exam away from Euphoria.

This is it!!! :)

4:30 AM.

WIDE AWAKE.

AND THE CLOCK TICKS........................................... STILL IM AWAKE

hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Oh well :)

(Is this post serious enough?)

I AM A SERIOUS PERSON!

... well, I'm trying to be.

I've been meaning to make this blog a serious one. Y'know like those blogs with politics, life, cooking... anything serious! But it's just so hard when you're life isn't much of a serious one. Hahahahahaha

Hay naku. Senseless things. I'm too soup for anything right now!

Dear Han,

After too much use of my stalled brain, I got very exhausted and figured that I deserve a break. And so, I think it's time we push through our Caribbean tour. :) Ok, ok?

Lemme know! And inform Mic about it too! :) I'll be preparing the tickets as soon as I submit our paper on Monday.

Love love,

Fay


ASA. haha. I'm so tired!

BAD..

I get to watch TV more often now that sembreak is about to commence and I see this ad very very often. This has made its way to the list of bad advertisements I have ever seen. I think you all know why.

Okay, back to 45 mode :)

I do all my best to finish my studies because my parents (well, everyone else) tell me that it's my passport to the best employers in the whole wide world. I work my guts off to get into the bestest schools in the country and let their name shine with all their glory in my resume and be the primary factor for me to work in an institution worthy of the hardcore work I have done. Despite my occasional procrastisnation and blatant laziness, I know that I am working damn hard to finish studies! Haha That's because I have to have myself employed (not under- not un-)... EMPLOYED.

But honestly, if I would have a boss, I want it to be me, myself and I. That means I want my own business! Nikko and I sort of breezed through this topic today and I just realized I should start finding means on how I can put up my own business. I should start NOW. I've got so much going on around me but if I really want it, I will find time to focus on it.

So now I am researching about probable businesses I can enter. I actually have a business in mind and might be starting it this summer. I'll keep it a secret first until I get my hands on that business. My family has actually been doing it but since my parents are also busy with office work, they do it only during holidays and when they find ample time.

Sometimes I do find everything I do contradicting each other. I'm taking up review classes for Law School and then i'll be submitting something for some sort of managerial training and then I'm busying myself with this business stuff all of sudden. Hhhmm. Well. Everything will fall into place. Right now, I just have to finish college and everything else will follow. hahahaha

Anyway, anyway. I'll stop here. I'm researching for more business-for-dummies summin' summin'! :)(:

Business Intelligence

Yes. That's what I have been studying since last night and I haven't finished the coverage today. I've been reading 200++ slides and I intend to re-read them in a little while for more comprehension. Thank God it's interesting. Otherwise, I'd be off doing something else than reading it all over again!

I so regret donating all my Stat 132 (Non-Paramertric Statistics) course notes to FOPC. I should've listened when a friend told me I'd be needing it some time in the future. That future IS HAPPENING. Now I'm studying it online. I've been downloading a big time e-book on torrent and I've downloaded a few web pages as well. Aaarrgghh. I won't throw out my course notes ever again.

This is the last day I shall consider myself semi-free. After taking my 197 exam tomorrow, I will be pre-occupied with 145 paper and exam until Monday. And then i'll declare myself extremely free!! :)

Yay! :) CSI first, then off with 97 again :)

Oh wait, I hate inconsiderate people!

SEMBREAK

A few days more. Kaya pa 'to :)

97 exam
45 paper
45 exam

Must focus.

My insensitivity

I think I must admit that I am insensitive at times. This afternoon, while boarding a Katipunan jeep, I saw a long-lost friend. The last time we really had a chat was way back freshman year. After which, we lost communication even if she's always online and just a text away. And so I got excited asking how she was....

Friend: Huy! Kamusta na?
Me: Ok lang. You?
Friend: Ok lang din. Graduating ka na?.. blah blah blah
Me: Hopefully! Blah blah blah.................. So musta na kayo ng boyfriend mo? (I was referring to her boyfriend of six years!)
Friend: Break na kami e. (awkward silence).
Me: OMG. I'm so sorry. (awkward silence).
Friend: Hindi, ok lang yun, I don't condemn you.
Me: Sorry talaga. (long awkward silence). So......... kelan kayo nagbreak?

Friend: Uhm......... LAST WEEK.

Me: OMG. I'll just shut up. :)

I was too excited I was not even watching my words! Haha. She looked very very pretty so I thought she was perfectly fine. She didn't look like she just got out of a very long relationship. We just ended up laughing because I was so foul! haha

Insensitive!

After pretending to know (when in fact I was just tinkering) stuff about Eviews, I will take this night off. Tomorrow, I'd be swallowed by my laptop because I'd just be home reading big time ppt's for 197. Hhhaaayy. I can do this. I'm fortunate enough to start my sembreak on the 20th. Nonetheless, I promised to help out my friends. :)

I hope I can get to sleep properly tonight. I've been sleeping around 3am for the past days. I go to bed around 1am and despite trying hard to sleep (and thinking of thoughts that could doze me off) I still find myself wide awake. What is wrong with me?

madness

After reading Rhonda Byrne's The Secret, I decided to utilize "the secret" in my oh so beautiful life... haha And so to ease my weary heart and mind this hell week,

I am letting the world know that I...........

HAVE STUDIED EAGERLY FOR TOMORROW'S EXAM.
HAVE MEMORIZED ALL FORMULA AND DENSITY FUNCTIONS.
HAVE DISCERNED EVERY CONCEPT THERE IS.
HAVE UNDERSTOOD AND CAN ENUMERATE ALL THE THEOREMS.

More importantly,

I WILL PERFECT TOMORROW'S EXAM. haha

Okay, I think this isn't what the book is trying to teach me. But it helps to have exaggerated positivity for a while. I really should be shutting this laptop down and read read read read. But my mind's tired already. I think I have to rest and then resume studying tomorrow.

Hello hell week. Glad you came :) ( O diba, POSITIVITY!)

IMMA GET YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST YOU WAIT!

My brain needs escape so here I am :)) I won't be surprised if I find myself cramming tomorrow!

I caught Cheska Garcia and Doug Kramer's wedding snippets on TV this afternoon. Their vows were so... aaawww. I wonder how mine and my future husband's would be like. Hahahaah

Ack! Non sense! The wedding just seemed spectacular and I sort wandered of about my own wedding. I actually forgot my thoughts about this matter but Han suddenly shared photos of Cheska's wedding on YM. Boo. Hahaha

When we turn out the lights................................. :) :) :)

My dad

A few benta conversations with my dad. He does have a sense of humor. He's just not aware of it and actually considers it as intellect.

Scene 1: Discussing with him the notion of acquiring another car.....

Me: Kasi pa, mas madali. Hindi na kayo ma-ha-hassle sa paghatid....... etc etc (and all advantages I can think of)

Dad (with his eyes wide-open as if he thought of something very brilliant): Anak, ok lang yan. May pinag-aaralan naman ako ngayon...

Me: Ano yun?

Dad: TELEPORTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Scene 2: This is actually a phone conversation with him. Right now, he's in SanFo and he called to tell me he's buying clothes for pasalubong. Wherever he goes, he doesn't forget to buy me shirts. Unfortunately, he buys me T-shirts and gets offended when I don't wear them to school. And so before he made a purchase.............

Dad: I'm buying you shirts right now.

Me: Pa! Yung baby tee! Sabihin mo ... BABY TEE!!!

Dad: Ano?!! Ano ung pang-BABY?! BAKIT?!

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Scene 3: Every night, before I go to sleep, I go to my parents' room and kiss them goodnight. Sometimes I sleep too late that when I get to their room, they're already in deep sleep. I try to approach them, nonetheless. So as I was about to kiss my dad, he awoke and exclaimed.....

Dad: Sino ka?! Sino ka?! (positioning his fist as if he was going to punch me)

haha
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Scene 4: He always claims to be a UP Law graduate. Thing is, he's not and everyone knows that. He just loves teasing me about it. If you listen to the radio every so often, you might have heard of the UP quiz and I dared him to answer all questions correctly to prove he was indeed from UP. He got almost all 5 questions right (well, about the UP Ikot fare, I didn't know if he was right) but that one thing that got us all laughing:

Question: Saang kanta galing ang line na "Di pa rin magbabago ang damdamin"?

With all conviction he answered............................

Dad: UP Kong Minamahal!!!!!
Us: Ha? UP Naming Mahal!
Dad: Kelan lang yan binago. Nung panahon ko, UP Kong Minamahal yun.

hahahahaha
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Hahahaha. I think I'm just missing him right now.

TONIGHT...

... I shall welcome............ HELL WEEK. This means that I will....................

start studying for 146 today
finish all eng30 requirements on Sunday
submit to Mic all eng30 requirements on Monday
start studying for 197 on Tuesday
start studying for 145 on Thursday
work on the 145 paper every time I have to until the deadline

:)

I sometimes hate the media. They provide too much information and it's no longer healthy. Fine, it's their job but they have to know when to draw the line.

I guess the most apparent example to show that sometimes they do cross borders even if they compromise their lives is that time when Ces Drilon was held captive in Sulu. She broke rules and guidelines putting herself and her entire team in dire danger. But I won't dwell on that. So many stories and insights have been written about it.

Now, what urged me to feel this tinge of hatred?

It's that Wowowee segment when a lola accidentally showed her boobs nationwide. Her boobs was on display during the aforementioned afternoon show.... PRIMETIME SHOW, must I say. A lot saw it already so was there a need to put it on the news later that night?! I think not. Even if she is THAT old, the old woman deserved respect. It's like doubling her humiliation and finding more people to make fun of what happened.

Nakakainis.

Media people should sometimes think twice about those things they broadcast to the whole nation. I don't want to think it's just for the sake of their ratings. But what purpose would broadcasting to everyone an old woman's boobs serve? Sometimes the media looks pathetic already. They find every little thing controversial and it no longer matters if they're stepping on other people. All that matters is THEY HAVE GOT TO HAVE A STORY.

That very few seconds they aired that clip on news would've been more substantial if they aired clips about other Filipinos from remote areas, etc etc etc.

:)(:

Thank you Lord for him. :)

THE MOMENT OF TRUTH

Wow.

I'm currently watching The Moment of Truth on Star World. It's that game show where you have to answer all questions truthfully for you to win five hundred thousand dollars. Sounds quite easy but it gets all too emotionally-tormenting as it goes on. And at this moment the player (a girl) is being asked.... "Do you think you were in love with a former boyfriend during your wedding day?" and she answered... YES. Mind you, her husband is with her.

Now, she's a question closer to 100,000 dollars and her ex-bf is asking the question: "Do you believe I'm the man you should be married to?" and she freakin' answered... YES. Omg.

Is the money even worth it???

feeling bobo :(

I just got my diagnostic exam results this morning and I....

I.......

I..........

I...............

I...................

feel so bobo. :(  Aaarrgghh Haha.  This might be my karma and so I promise with all my freakin' heart that I....

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

WILL STOP MOCKING BUDDY FOR HIS ENGLISH.

I.WILL.STOP.MOCKING.BUDDY. FOR. HIS. ENGLISH!

Just when I though I am adequate, I feel a sudden rush of incompetence.  Gggrr.  And so I'm leaving for the bookstore right now and find a substantial pocketbook I will feed my vocabulary/creativity-stalled brain with!  

Goodbye!

BOYS BOYS BOYS

Disclaimer: This is not a malandi post. :P I'm just trying to put into words how I perceive my boy friends (yes, emphasis on the space between the b and f words).

As most people know, I grew up in a somewhat secluded environment. I had nuns, female teachers, female friends, classmates, female etc etc etc enclosing me. Everything around me was feminine. I made the best out of my years in school without any constant connection to boys other than neighbors and those we forcefully acquaint ourselves with during school interactions. I grew up without experiencing much chivalry aside from those I get from my dad, cousins and fortunately a few gentlemen I meet. I grew up carrying the heaviest of my heaviest bags without waiting for someone to voluntarily get it from me. I sit on floors, corridors, anywhere I want to (must be clean enough, though) without really caring if it was unbecoming of a woman or not. All I know is that, I'm free to do what any one else could do.. what boys could for that matter.

Then came college. I got to know more and more and more and more boys. I learned from watching them, how CHECKING OUT GIRLS really happen. (And they're so damn good at it that I find it funny with their heads taking a 360-turn). I learned how comfortable it is to have them by your side and make them carry your luggage! Hahahahaha. I learned how beautiful it is to be a woman because you've got people to take care of you because they are THE MEN. Hahahahahaha. But what's the weirdest realization I have been trying to discern lately?

THAT BOYS ARE VERY VERY VERY VERY EMOTIONAL.

Okay, I won't generalize but that's what I notice with my friends. Haha. I don't know if it's just because they're having these emotional-slash-extraromantic-slash-must let it out moments all at the same time but they've been really cheesy! Hearing them say "friends forever" or get this.... "true friends" made me cringe a bit. Hahahaha I can't believe those words would ever make their way out of their mouths. I don't even remember having those kinds of conversation with any of my girl friends. And on random moments they'd open up and you're not ready for it just because you thought they're strong enough to hold it in.

But actually, I'm loving the fact that my boy friends are like that. I learn a lot from their views. More so, I now feel empathy for brokenhearted boys. I mean, they do get hurt too and like us, girls, they need that group cuddle (hahaha) or some people who would soften their hearts as they help mend his. It's not what he says or she says. Thing is, everyone gets hurt and everyone gets emotional. I can say that because I've been a witness to it for the past few days and counting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I find it funny when my boy friends drop uber emotional lines, stare blankly at nowhere and stay silent for a long time. But the moment they speak, I know it comes from somewhere deep and it's just not being emotional that's killing them... it's having to find someone to talk to and ease what they feel.

Aaaaaawwww. :)

I love my boy friends. They can just be so grabe downright EMO and it's so freaky!

To all of you, andito lang kami nila Keith. Hahahahahaha :)

EXTEME COBRALYN MOMEMT!

Everyone who takes Antipolo/Cogeo/Marikina (but primarily Antipolo) jeepneys can relate to my unrelentingly amazing adventure.

My mom sent me a message this afternoon telling me she won't be able to pick me up earlier than 8pm. My classes ended at 1 and I was dying to go home because I barely had sleep the night before. And so I decided to go home alone meaning, commute. My route involved a Katipunan jeep, Antipolo jeep and by choice, a trike.

I've been used to Antipolo jeepneys playing those taglish-rap-rnb (I don't know to what genre they belong to) during the long trip along Marcos Highway. They play it as loud as their speakers can. And if you go home by night, the lights inside the jeepney would suddenly turn green, orange, red...... etc. etc. It becomes a mobile bar in some way and the super-duper-rocketing speed of the jeepneys would make you move around the vehicle like everyone's swaying or must I say, dancing. Hahahaha

This afternoon was different. Yes, they were playing the taglish-rap-rnb songs. Yes, we were rocketing along Marcos Highway. But the song......... THE SONG....... THE SONG.............. MY GOODNESS...... THE SONG.

Enjoy...... Feast........ Extreme Cobralyn-level song. I searched the lyrics on the internet just so everyone who gets to read this would empathize. Hahaha READ EACH LINE.

Pangarap ko na matamis ay para sa iyo
Ang magkaanak tayo na puro bobo
Ang makasama ka sa iyo magkapamilya
Sa ilalim ng tulay duon kita ititira
Pangarap ko mabigyan kita ng kariton
Ikaw at ang anak natin magtutulak maghapon
Dahil ako’y walang silbe,ika’y magsisilbe
Ikaw at ang anak natin mamamasura lagi
Mas maswete tayo sa iba at mas mapalad
Dahil mamumuhay tayo na kapuspalad
Palagi tayong magdidildil ng asin
At ‘pag walang makain itutulog nalang natin
O my fiancee,listen to what i say
Magiging buhay natin kahirapan everyday
Walang-wala kang mapapala ‘yan ay asahan mo
Dahil ‘di ako magkakaroon ng trabaho

Chorus:

Girl,pwede ka bang maging asawa
Girl,habang-buhay tayong magsasama
Pero hindi ka pwedeng magreklamo
At lahat ng ito’y dapat titiisin mo
At ang mahalaga,ay no return no exchange tayo
O ano? O sey mo?Oh…

Bawat segundo ng buhay mo bigla mag-iiba
Buhay sa kalsada iyong matatamasa
Ititira kita sa bahay ko na madilim
Dalawang beses isang linggo hapunan lang tayo kakain
Hindi na natin matutupad mga pangarap
Ikaw at ako magsasama sa paghihirap
Sa simbahan mamamalimos ka maghapon
Habang ako’y manghoholdap at mang-i-snatch na cellphone
At lalaking baluga ang ating anak
Pati sa iskwelahan hindi sila makakaapak
ganyan kita kamahal,ako’y magbabakal
Kakainin na lang natin aking pangsusugal
Inaalay ko sa ‘yo buhay ko sa basurahan
Pinapangako ko sa ‘yo tayo’y walang kinabukasan
Walang iwanan hanggang sa tayo’y tumanda
Inibig mo ‘ko,girl, kaya wala kang napala
Binuntis kita agad kaya ‘di ka na nakapalag
Sa ayaw mo’t sa gusto kasama mo ‘ko magdamag
Sa wakas may katabi na ring matulog sa estero
Magsisiksikan tayo sa aking bahay kubo
Di ka pababayaan,iingatan nakagwantes kang magkakalkal basurahan
Pero ‘wag mag-alala kasama mo ating anak
Habang ako ay tulala ikaw nama’y puro iyak
Promise ko iti-treat ko ang buong family
Mag-aabang kakain ng tira-tira sa Jollibee
Para germ-free,para iwas sa sakit
Kapag panis na,iinitin lang ulit

Mamumuhay tayo ng marangal
Hindi tayo kakain ng almusal
Gutom natin titiisin lang lilipas din naman
Mamumuhay tayong walang luho sa katawan

Repeat Chorus

Hey yo!
Pa’ano na kung hinda mo ako naging sikat na moviestar
At natsambahan mo akong maging asawa
Araw-araw tanduay,araw-araw tambay
Imbes na Rockwell du’n tayo sa tulay
At sa palengke nag-aabang ng bigay
Ng mag buntot ng baboy at bulok na gulay
Pupunta ng Channel 7 tiyak na dun kasama ka
Sa mga artista manghihingi ng barya
Pambili ng ukay-ukay na may mantsa na steak
Expired na de-lata,botoks na puto cake
At tayo’y nasa Malate alas siyete ng gabi
Ibubugaw kita at isasakay sa taxi
Pero thank Godbiniyayaan ako kaya
‘Di mo mararanasan mga bagay na ‘to



I know the guy in front of me was watching my reactions. At some point I exclaimed.. "What?!" Hahaha I don't know what I'd do to any guy who'd sing me this song. I think the last two lines are supposed to negate the whole song but it didn't work. haha. This song is too.. I DON'T KNOW.

WHAT THE?! haha Must love Antipolo jeeps! haha