sad :(

Sad :(

My high school friends are asking me out on Wednesday night. But of course, I had to decline. :( I miss them so much but what can I do? This is just depressing. I haven't seen them for the longest time and I just want to be with them even for a little while. A few chitchat would suffice. Thing is, every second counts this week. I must utilize every single second I have to do what I have to do.

Wednesday. 5pm. Katipunan (Just so Quezon City people can go. But apparently, I CAN'T). I WANT to go. I MUSt go. I CANNOT go.

:( :( :(

The moment this "ordeal" ends, I promise to pamper myself with friends BY ALL possible means! ggrrr

hehehe

Ingrid, ate's friend, called this morning asking if we would be watching the Eheads Reunion Concert that's happening tonight. I said no and she asked why. Then I just realized, WHY THE HELL AM I NOT WATCHING THE CONCERT?! Arggh.

Well, aside from the fact that it's my pictorials, I hate myself for not actually being informed about it. I thought they'd be holding it like next month and not anytime sooner... NOT TONIGHT. Hay. But I guess it's ok. I enjoyed the pictorials with all those crazy and daring shots my friends were making. Hahaha.

But I really wanted to see that concert. :( :( :( Now you know how much of a fanatic I am when it comes to Eheads. :p

Here's something from our pictorials:
If only they allowed me to post all the pictures, I think I'd beat the 100 ++-comment record on multiply Tina and I are trying to put up. Hahaha But because of dire respect I have for my friends and a blatant shame I put on myself, I'll keep the nasty and unruly pictures from prying eyes. Haha. Kasi naman ung shots, grabe talaga. Hahahahaha. When the prints come out, you'd know what I mean. Hahahahahahahaha.

Topless shotsssss......... whoah. Haha. Sino kaya? Haha. For now, that's all I can say. :P

hahahahaha

I just have to share these instances so I can stop laughing ALONE. Haha. These all happened during our Eng30 class.

This morning, I sat beside Mic.

Sir Alex: Who among you here would give your seatmate 100 pesos if they'd ask for it?
*Mic raises his hand*
*Stat people's reaction: weh?*

Me: Mic, penge ako 100.
Mic: Alam ko namang di mo talaga kakailanganin e kaya nag-raise ako. Haha

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Sir Alex: Many are afflicted with dengue nowadays
*Mic leans back very very very very very slowly while smiling at me*
Me: Mic! Dengue kasi un! Nakakamatay!

Stress! Stress! Stress!

A week and a half before the anniversary week! OMG! Must focus. Must work. Must stay calm.

I'm getting fidgety. There's just so much to do yet so little time. I'm so tired but I'm trying my best to put my stress aside. A successful annivweek would be more than enough to compensate for all the sleepless nights, excruciating (must I say unnecessarily expensive) trips to Recto, walking to SC just to make phone calls and be declined and dealing with numerous nitpicks with a gargantuan smile. :)

Hhhhaaaayy.

Smile. Smile. Smile :)

Konti na lang. :)

Meet Gabby! :)

This is Gab, my 3-year old nephew! :) Aaaww.. I haven't seen him for the longest time and now he's into his first year in school. (Late news e, August na pala haha)



I'm glad my cousin posted his pictures. I just want to hug this litol boy right now. :)

I miss my little pepper :) I call him Pepper and he's been responding to it even if everyone's calling him Gab.

of maturity and rain

This is so scary. Everything's too fast-paced. I'm so not ready for a lot of changes just yet. Oh my goodness. But growing up is inevitable. Hence, I must face everything sooner or later.

I'm just so scared. :(

I love college!

I hope Sundae's with me on this one. I think I'll need her badly. Hehe

Cheers dear! Let's get it on! :)

So fast! So fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forgive me for the incoherence.

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Anyway, today was extremely rainy. Maze and I braved the roaring wind and monstorsic rainfall and ended up drying our clothes at the Econ CR. Hahahaha. We were so eager to get home, we didn't mind even if we were like basang sisiw already. Hehe

i'm still cheesy!

I was my mom's PA this morning. I accompanied her to a christening at St. Francis Church and my goodness, I didn't know anyone. Well, she barely knew anyone too. When the christening started, she left me seated at one of the empty pews at the back of the huge church. Yes, I WATCHED THEM FROM AFAR sitting ALONE in the middle of a very long pew. PA na PA. Amazingly though, I did not get grumpy at all for just sighing and looking around the church for an hour. I amused myself by making a lot of wishes since it was my first time at that church.

And then we went to the reception. Finally, I was socializing with the rest of the oldies (they were wearing YSL and Guess eyeglasses, so ggrr... fashionably PA pa rin ako 'cause my mom just told me to wear my casuals hahahaha). Well, anyway... the reception. Food was good but what entertained me most was the wedding reception being held at the adjacent function room. This post is actually a continuation of my previous post. Cheesy cheesy cheesy thoughts!!!

If there is one song I think I'd be downright kilig with when someone sings it to me.... (not necessarily the one God has prepared for me hahaha).... it would be..........

There are times when I just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times when I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold night
I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

All those years I've longed to hold you in my arms
I've been dreaming of you
Every night I've been watching all the stars that fall down
Wishing you will be mine now
I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

Time and again there are these changes
That we cannot end
As sure as time keeps going on and on
My love for you will be forevermore

I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world

As endless as forever
Our love will stay together
You are all I need to be with forevermore

As endless as forever(forever)
Our love will stay together(together)
You are all I need to be with forevermore

I just think this song has the words a song has to have to soften a girl's heart......... aaaaaaaaaawwwwww... :)

As endless as forever.............. :) :) :)

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I therefore conclude that happy posts help a lot. People think I'm happy so they treat me like I'm happy so I treat myself like I'm happy then I end up thinking I'm happy. :)

Cheesy cheesy me :)

Grumpy posts are not allowed even if I have a million to list. For now, this will be a happy happy happy post. :)

If there is one song I'd dream to dance the night away with that one man God has prepared for me. It would be..........

I finally found someone
Who knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
Who makes me feel complete
It started over coffe
We strated out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin

This time is different
And it's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it though
My favouite line was
"Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind
I apologise, baby that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear
Isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional
I can't wait for the rest of my life

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

I overheard this while watching Singing Bee (yes, I am a fan!). This song is so so sooooooo old but everytime I hear IT, I tend to smile and dream of being somewhere else far far far far away with a man whom I would share the rest of my life with. :) :) :) I told you this is an extremely cheesy post.

I get so kilig whenever I hear this. :) :)

I haven't been perky for the past few days. So I'll be fair to myself and actually be happy (or at least try to be) in this entry. But hey-ho, nothing's really quite fun at the moment. It's all about work and studies and work and studies. I guess I would just have to post reviews on stuff I tried to pre-occupy myself with over the loooooong weekend.

Wall-E

Yahoo! I went out with friends last Saturday in the hope of them curing my dreadfully stressed self (note to self: this is a happy post!). Fortunately, they were so good a pill. Haha. I was torn between watching A Very Special Love and Wall-E. I was just so curious why people around me seemed to be greatly fond of the Sarah-John Lloyd tandem. Well anyway, my friends watched it already so we're down to Wall-E.

There were so many kids lining up at the entrance and I thought it was just some cartoon flick which will hopefully make me happy in some mature way. But 'lo and behold, it wasn't just any cartoon! Aside from it talking about waste allocations and other environmental concerns, it was a very romantic story! Yes! I fell in love with the story of two robots. Mind you, two animated robots.

The movie is simply amazing and I suggest watching with friends. :)

Cinderella

Ever since I watched Miss Saigon Manila, I swore to myself to watch every Broadway play they would produce here. The moment I heard about Rodgers and Hammerstein's Cinderella to be played here in Manila, I told my mom about it and she did me a big favor of reserving tickets before it got sold out.

I am a fan of plays. I guess it was due to my participation in productions during my highschool years. I know how it was like to be onstage and to be mindful of every BIG movement you do. And wow! All I can say is that Lea Salonga is for real, WORLD CLASS.

You may think it's quite an expensive event and maybe a boring one at that with everyone knowing Cinderella's story. But the play will make you feel like a child again... amazed and "disney"-fied. I just loved the set, the actors and their voices! More so, the songs were so enlivening and you'd just notice yourself smiling and getting all perky.

It's very much worth the thousands of pesos you spend. It was indeed a magical night. I loved it. I simply loved it. :)

I think their last performances will be on this coming weekend. Hurry!!!! Call ticket-net and watch it at the CCP! :)

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Ok done.

Happiness. Haha

NAKAKAINIS

I've been tormenting myself for days because I've been doing something I continuously tell myself not to do.

Nakakainis.

I'm really so not good in playing this game.

READ: I AM NOT INTERESTED.

Careful what you wish for

I wish I knew how to put it into words.
I wish I wasn't that good in keeping what I feel.
I wish I were more outspoken.
I wish I'm not this kind.
I wish I'd be strong enough.
I wish I could just do it.
I wish I could resist everything.
I wish I'm not this meek.
I wish I'd be wiser this time.
I wish I'm not this thoughtful.
I wish I would stop thinking about things I really shouldn't bother myself with.

I wish........
I wish.........................

and that's all I could do... wish.

That's what brings ever afterings...............

Don't you just love EVER AFTERS? :)
LOVED IT! :)

to be happy....

...is to keep distance from what makes you sad even if the sole act of doing so rips you apart. All you know and have to believe in is that you'd be happier in the long run.

Oooohhhhhhh.

BAD TRIP

Bad trip

Bad trip

Bad trip

EXTREMELY BAD TRIP.

Hmp!

Last chance.

Last................

............. chance.

Don't pull the last thread. :)

Ho-huhhhmmm

I really don't have anything substantial to talk about. I've been sleeping the whole day because I promised to take this day off for myself. :)

Ho-humm.

I'm dead scared of having to commute nowadays. I don't commute on a regular basis but there are times when I just want to go home, rest and do stuff. During those times, I am too lazy to wait for my sundo and I would travel on my own from UP to Antipolo. My route involves Katipunan and I've always felt safe walking alone that stretch until I get to the other side of the highway. But recently, I've been very scared.

One night, while studying at Starbucks, a group of people was trying to comfort a girl. I just overheard that it was due to a hold-up incident she got into aboard a Katipunan jeep on her way to UP. That was around 7pm. When I got home, I read about Tara Santelices from Tina's blog. She was the girl shot at the head somewhere in Cainta. That was morning I think. The next day, I learned that two of my orgmates went through another hold-up incident while they were in the newly-installed Katipunan footbridge. That was 11pm. All in a day.

That was scary and up to now, despite my want to go home early, I'm afraid of riding jeepneys. I think I'd rather walk home that be stuck in a vehicle and be helpless the moment someone declares hold-up.

What's weird is that just below the footbridge, MMDA police are stationed. They were actually among the reasons why I feel safe walking along Katipunan. But they seem useless noq (I'm sorry). I hope that among the government's plan to provide a more secure place for everyone of us, training the people they deploy to protect us with utter discipline and strong commitment to their work would be their primary goal.

The incidents are saddening and very scary. I guess will all have to take extra care wherever we are.

CHAIR ON LOOSE

As some of you may know, I'm currently heading the External Committee of my organization. By it's name, we do those talking and convicing stuff with establishments all over the Philippines. All over the country meaning even politicians. I gave my vice-chairs the task of UPDATING our contacts because the list was just handed over to me and I didn't know if it was still accurate. And so, we had to UPDATE.

To my surprise, my vc's texted me that the secretaries of some of those enlisted politicians were already getting mad for calling the wrong number. I was just outraged because I thought politicians (or anyone representing them) should be, by all means, accomodating. If my vice-chairs made a mistake (or fine, mistakes), they could've corrected them in the most modest manner. And really, they're citizens. They're entitiled to RESPECT. If those politicians want people's respect they might as well teach "THEIR PEOPLE" to be a little kind and nicer to EVERYONE. I'm used to people being masungit over the phone and I've learned to bear with it because its part of the marketing job. But I don't think people in the government should be like that. :( Saddening.


Maybe they're the secretaries and I shouldn't judge/ generalize the politicians just because of what happened. But tell me, with that attitude "their people" are showing... WHAT DOES THAT SAY ABOUT THEIR POLITICIAN'S OFFICE?

Ewan. Masungit people. They really annoy me especially when they do that to the wrong persons and just for the reason that "hey, you're just you and I AM ME".

Sumbong ko sila sa daddy ko. :(

Gggrr.

Haha. Mature e.

Here's to another sleepless week... TAGAY! haha

Anyway, I can't wait for Saturday! I'm getting my white puppy which I bought from Mow. Yeahba! :) A new doggie in the house. She's still young so she's a little susceptible to a lot of whatevers and so I'm going to take super good care of her. I think Pompom's excited about his soon-to-be girlfriend. Haha

I wonder what name I'll give. Hhhmm..

Care for any suggestions? :D

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So so sleepy. Haha. I'm being a "moral support" to someone, if that's how I should phrase it. Haha

frustration

I am so freakin' sad and frustrated tonight. I want to study for my 47 exam. A day and half makes me confident enough. Now I'm missing a half day of studying. Gggr. I lost my readings or (hopefully) I left it at the tambayan along with a number of pertinent documents. Goodness gracious. I just want to study right now. That way, I won't have to worry much tomorrow. Worse, I have classes 'til the afternoon tomorrow which leaves me a few hours to study. Aaarrgggh. I hate it.

Why oh why does this have to happen?

And so I'm once again keeping myself busy with org stuff. I MUST MAKE MYSELF PRODUCTIVE in some other ways. My free hours tomorrow shall be for 47 and 47 alone. Call me nerd, but really, I don't understand a thing in that course and studying (must I say, discerning it) on my own is the only way I get by. I'm envying everyone studying right now!!!

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On a lighter and more fun note, I want to party. Haha. I don't know. I just want to spend a night off. I'm not even that stressed yet but I just want to be with company of friends and talking about fun fun fun fun stuff. But as it is, every night is spent with my fax machine, cellphone and computer. Hahahaha

I miss Greenbelt environment. My goodness, I haven't been there for the longest time. Greenbelt keeps me relaxed because I'm literally far from stress. Haha. Let's go! Let's go!!!

Aaaarrrrrgggggh. Examination season. MUST FOCUS.

Forgive me for the incoherence. As I type, DSL's down. I don't even know if I can post this. Very beautiful evening. I thnk I'm sleeping this all away.

Boo life. Boo my readings. (I'm so scared because I wrote something on it which says "KAMUKHA NI SIR SI JOKER")

aaarrgghh.

Chillllllllllllllll

I'm trying to chill despite exams. Haha